Bunny the Cow

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8:00. It's going to be hard to fit running into my schedule but I know I have time for one or two miles a day. My schedule is also exhausting. My goal this semester is too not overexercise. I exercised way too much last year. My goal is to do 3 a day because my job is too active to do more than that.

1 by myself in 7:30 I think. 1 with Mimi and Bella in around 8:45, and 1 with Leigha also in around 10:15 I think.

Went to the park and we ran for about half a mile. Later I did about 1.75 in 12:15. Not sure the exact distance because a bunch of dear got in the way.

I don't hate running but my life has been way better since doing less. I already have a very active lifestyle and running just adds more unnecessary stress and fatigue. Running is good for you but not if you are already moving a lot. I haven't felt this good since I was a little kid. I have less anxiety, procrastination, fatigue, brain fog, sadness, irritability, mood swings, and pain. I have more quality sleep, energy, focus, motivation, and an overall increase in satisfaction of life. I think running one mile a day won't hurt, but running more than 3 is not ideal.

24:29. I can tell my running performance is going down. I'm not too motivated to run consistently because I am working 30 hours and taking 10 credits. I rarely get to sit at work and I also lift weights about 3 hours a week. I really don't have energy to run every day right now.

24:04 I think. It was on the treadmill, did a half mile in 3:00 somewhere in the run.

7:39

16:33

16:27

12:08.

16:41.

16:24

16:22 on the treadmill. I got endowed today!!!

16:40. Last quarter in 79 I think.

16:11 last quarter in 78.

2 in 16:30. Then did .5 with the kids in 5:20. I felt very stressed and depressed today. I didn't have work and I realized that the only time I get this sad is when I have no babies to take care of. I just want a baby and nothing else. Every time I have a break from kids I get depressed like this. I need to learn to stay positive, but I don't think I was made to be alone. I wish I could be a mom now. I am glad that running helped though. Next time I get sad I need to just run a couple miles before loafing around all day.

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8:24. My goal is to get to 8:00 pace on the hilly course to feel easy. Around 8:40 pace first thing in the morning feels right. My goal is to get as fast as I can without burnout.

8:27. I think if I do a 5 min warmup before I will be a lot faster.

8:10. It helped that I ran this an hour later in the morning.

8:10

Around 16:00. First mile was 8:23 (on the hill course). At 1.5 I was at 12:17, but I think I accidentally paused it for almost a minute. This pace felt like 14:00 for 2 miles. I am still on the fence if I want to train for longer distances one day or if I should choose a completely new sport. If I want to be faster I would have to be thinner. I would rather not do that because I have more of a gymnast body and feel better not having a runner's body. I will put in the work to be a fit runner without overtraining and will see what kind of sport works best.

16:42. I did 2 because I have no work today. The first mile was 8:37(on the hill course). It was hotter and it felt like 14:00 for 2 miles. Heart rate was about 168 on the easy parts and 180 on the hills. This is way too high for this kind of pace. I will have to be patient.

8:31 on the hill course. I really need to use a measuring wheel because Google maps says that this course is about 708 feet too much!If Google maps is correct that will make me very happy. I've measured this mile at least 10 times and Google maps says something different almost every time.

8:10.

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8:23. Not bad after working 10 hours with no break. My feet hurt.

16:07. First mile was 8:18. Last quarter was 97. It was hot. I wonder if I should do more miles but run slower. This was definitely workout pace and felt more like anaerobic training.

8:20. Did this after work. It felt easier than before on this kind of day, lungs hurt a bit though. I need to meal prep so I don't go hungry and warm up better.

1 mile with Gideon! I am so proud of him that he did his first mile only stopping twice! He did 4:20 and 4:42! I did one more in 8:16. I am grateful for my health and for still having energy after working 10 hours.

17:42. It is seriously hard to make myself go slower. My whole running life I have done my easy runs too fast. Hopefully if I train at a slower pace, I will get faster without burning out.

17:21. First mile was 9:00, I took a 4 min break after the first half mile. I just love running so much. I am extremely grateful I get to run.

8:42

1 in 8:57. Then did a half in parts at around 8:40 pace. Then half mile up the hill in 3:33, and last half back in 4:37.

One in 8:38 and around one in around 8:00. It's only 70 degrees but it feels so hot.

9:03. I need more sleep. I worked 10 hours and had very achy joints.

One in 8:18 I think and then one in 8:58.

9:00

Even though I exercised way more than this, I will just count it as one. I worked 9 hours and then went to Provo to play with foster kids. I ran around the whole time basically. Joints hurt too much to run. Maybe I should get a nice watch to better approximate how much running and distance I do on an average day. Maybe not though, it's probably expensive.

17:43. I took quite a few breaks. Need to be careful not to get burnt out. I had a really incredible experience meeting up with a sweet couple that didn't know what to do about their unplanned pregnancy. They were happy for the support we gave from Pro Life Utah. I don't know who reads my blogs but if you are, please consider joining Prolifeutah and help save women and babies! We need lots of help!

Around 17:20. I felt unmotivated for life but forcing myself to run was the best cure. I need to remember days like this. When I have no desire to work hard or get things done, I must go on a run no matter what. Even if it is a 100 meter run. Just get something done and stop feeling sorry for yourself.

8:43. The sky was breathtaking. Hopefully reading this blog again one day will bring back the memory of it.

17:24 with Davis and Taylor. They are twins. Taylor is much more enthusiastic about running.

1 in 8:50 and after a short break did 1 in 8:51. I think if I didn't work I would be totally running 6 miles a day or at least way faster. I need to stop telling myself I am lazy just because I am running less. I always wonder if it is ever possible to balance energy for exercise and life. Like Elder Bednar said, "There's no such thing as balance". I guess I shouldn't strive for balance because it doesn't exist.

I worked nonstop from 7-11 so I didn't run, I think the amount of work I did is plenty exercise.

8:51. My body is tired from working. I'm not sure if this type of fatigue is supposed to be pushed through or rested, but I'd rather be careful than run myself into a ditch.

23:00. Google maps said it was 2.9 miles, but it's close enough for now. Ran this with Taylor! He is stronger than me and I have to ask him to slow down. He loves the gospel more than any boy I've met. I should take him to the track and see how fast he can do a mile.

I felt very tired after the run and didn't get to rest because I had to work 10 hours. Probably need more electrolytes and sleep. I was out of breath most of the day and oftentimes dizzy. I can run a lot as long as I take care of myself.

23:31 with Taylor. I asked if he was planning on going to college ever. He said he was not. I told him knowledge is power and God is truth. He said he is grateful for my advice and is reconsidering. I hope he takes it and goes to college. I also gave him the scripture D&C 58:26-29. We need to trust the Lord but also be anxiously engaged in good works by our own free will. We shouldn't wait to be commanded in all things.

I felt much better today and my heart didn't feel weird at all. I think I was right and just needed sleep and keep electrolytes more balanced. Still worked extremely hard and was sore from moving things but I think running 3 every morning is going to be just fine.

23:07. I am very blessed to get to run with Taylor. Having a running buddy makes running very fun and motivating.

I was a little tired. Just needed more sleep. Life is good, even though I've been working more than I have in my life, I feel so blessed.

27:08. Did it on my course alone which was a lot harder. It felt good though since I went slow.

26:40. Even though I am running less, I feel like the fitness I have now is the same as what I had in the fall 2023. Overtraining can be just as bad or way worse than under training.

O.9 miles in around 8:00 pace. After a surge in 13.25 Taylor and I ran a mile around the track. He got 6:17. I am much slower and I didn't do my best, but at least I found a nice boy who is faster than me! He passed the test in jeans, which probably slowed him down. We ran 0.7 more in around 8:45 pace. My lungs hurt.

23:30. A little tight, but my lungs are just fine. I am excited to do another track workout sometime. Taylor did a little DTR and asked if I liked him. He really likes me. I won't be dating till after my mission though.

Around 23:20 with Taylor.

Around 23:20 with Taylor.

23:05 I think. With Taylor.

23:18 with Taylor.

One to the track in around 8:15. Taylor and I ran a mile on the track. I am so grateful that I get to run with him. He got 5:50! The first half was 3:05 for him. I got about 6:27. My first half was 3:07, when I fell behind him. I got distracted watching him kick to get his time so I didn't kick fast enough. I didn't do my best and wanted to get a better workout so we did a lap in 79 together. We then walked home.

23:17 with Taylor.

23:56 with Taylor and Davis. Today was interesting. The whole morning I went to SLC with Taylor and we stood outside of Planned Parenthood and handed out gift bags. Pro-Life Utah has a mobile clinic and we give free ultrasounds right outside the abortion clinic. No babies saved today, but we had lots of conversations with the other volunteers about religion. It is just crazy to me that abortions are still allowed and that most latter-day saints don't do a lot to help save babies.

Also, before my run I went on a date at the pond with a guy I met at the car repair shop. Literally 10 minutes after the date I ran around the same pond with a different boy. Just thought it was funny I was with two boys who have a crush on me in the same place.

22:37 with Taylor. We also went to planned parenthood again. It so sad watching people go into the building to kill their baby.

22:37 with Taylor. While running with Taylor I passed the same boy I went on a date with yesterday! Thank goodness he didn't recognize me.

Went to planned parenthood again to offer resources to pregnant women. One very angry woman cursed and yelled at us as she went into the building. When she came out awhile later she was recording us, saying cruel things, and trying to act like we were breaking the law. We weren't. I hope I find myself on YouTube one day. I can only pray that they will feel the guilt of their sins, "They know not what they do."

22:44 with Taylor. This morning we went to the sidewalks of planned parenthood again. It is the last day of being a sidewalk advocate until winter break probably. There were lots of angry people as always. A car that was passing by rolled down it's window and a girl yelled out telling us to go home and other cruel things. I handed a women a business card and she kindly said thank you. I then watched her walk about 20 ft away and she began ripping it apart with her mouth and spitting on the ground. She then looked back and flipped us off. I got flipped off only 3 times today. These type of encounters happened about 4 times each day and it really shows that Satan is not happy with us being out there.

Taylor and I ran to the track in 6:11 (about 3/4 mile). We didn't start at the mile, we accidentally just did the 1600 meters. He got 6:00, with 3:05 for the first half. I got 6:27 again with 3:07 for the first half. I think we were just hot. We ran home at 8 minute pace. I think I will run faster if he gets his own watch so I can focus more.

Around 22:00 with Taylor.

Around 22:00 with Taylor.

Around 22:00 with Taylor.

Around 22:00 with Taylor.

23:28. Taylor and I went to the canyon after volunteering together. I am extremely blessed to run with him everyday!

1 mile in around 8 min pace. Taylor tried to do 800m but just did 400 meters in about 70 seconds. After a long rest he tried for the 800 again and got 2:42. He needs to buy a watch.

I did 3 laps with a long rest in between each. I got 81, 77, and 80. This workout tells me that I really need to focus more. I forget to push when my muscles start to give out. I am not used to going into the anaerobic zone. Once I retrain myself to be more long suffering I think my mile time will get much faster.

I'm guessing we ran 2.9 miles in around 22:00, not sure.

28:00 with Taylor.

26:02 with Taylor.

25:59 with Taylor.

22:22 with Taylor.

22:35 with Taylor. It is such a a blessing that Taylor runs with me everyday and never complains.

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27:26. Finally updated my logs for this month. Taylor and I have not missed a single run.

About 4.5 miles in 36:17. Ran to my house and back.

27:10. It is getting colder finally! I am so blessed that I get to run with Taylor everyday!

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27:00

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27:10.

21:52. I ran at around 10 pm last night and then ran this morning. It is so much harder to run in the morning.

Did about a mile for a warmup. Did the Golden Onion Days 5k in Payson with Taylor. I got 20:58. He did it right with me, but didn't register himself. I got 3rd/140 women. I am happy with my time considering the lack of energy I have to train more, and I also had a slight fever yesterday. I am very tired now. This race made me remember why I don't do hard workouts hardly ever, I can't function after a hard run.

I think I did it in around 27:30.

28:12 with Taylor. I am a bit tired from the virus.

28:35 with Taylor. He is such a good person to run with, I am so grateful for him. I felt very achy and tired today. I have been sick since Saturday. I surprisingly feel pretty good while running. I feel more achy when doing nothing, I wonder why that happens.

22:09 with Taylor. I don't think I am sick anymore.

Around 28:30 with Taylor.

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27:57 with Taylor.

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27:53 I think, with Taylor.

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First 2 in around 9 min pace with Taylor, Davis, and the Pachevs. Then just Taylor, Davis, William, and I did one in around 7:20. Today was interesting and important for my development. I worked 9.5 hours at the daycare then I drove Taylor and Davis to Orem to volunteer for the Utah Foster Care kids night out event. I have been struggling a lot just this month with stress from the past from my cousin who took advantage of me. It is hard to be around boys sometimes and today was especially hard. I wanted to take note of today because after the most stressful drive, instead of volunteering I took time stay outside and release my fears and replace it with God's truth. I was able to calm my nervous system completely, and I think I finally figured out a way to stay calm. Hopefully I will have less stress in these situations because of the things I learned. After the run, William had a long conversation with us and we were able to make amends. I am very grateful for the Atonement of Jesus Christ that fixes every wrong.

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28:04. Still running with Taylor everyday! But I am still struggling to find peace when around boys. Praying and thinking positive helps, but it takes a great amount of effort to stay in the present. These experiences will help me to understand others, but I desire to have less gross feelings when around boys.

2 with the Pachev girls in around 17:45 I believe. Then one with Leigha in 8:55. One more with Taylor in 8:20.

29:02. I don't know why we went so slow, probably got distracted.

Around 28:30.

Just went on a walk with Emma and Taylor. My ankle is a little sprained and I hoped walking would help. Also just overwhelmed I think.

I was too tired, and didn't want to run at 10:00 pm. I just feel overwhelmed.

I have been burnt out from fear and I felt very stuck. I was able to talk to Taylor's mom, she helped so much. I am so grateful. She taught me how to better balance my life so I do not "run faster than I have strength," I never understood this scripture till now. I don't need to run just for the sake of running, but in order to be a better disciple. I don't need to run to the point of exhaustion every time, and I don't need to do the hardest thing I can think of constantly.

I didn't even go to Taylor's house. I have been way too stressed, when I tried to exercise it just made it worse. I just needed to rest. I think I had a lot of emotions that have not been dealt with, it felt very painful when I released them through journaling and feeling the emotions. I usually avoid emotions but I realized that just makes it worse. It's interesting how the amount of adrenaline I had can cause physical sickness, it felt like I had a fever and extreme chest pressure. All is well now, I just needed to wait it out.

We just went on a mile walk with Emma and Taylor. I felt very peaceful, we talked for a while afterwards. I would have liked to run but I was having a lot of anxiety beforehand and didn't want to freak out on the run when I was alone with Taylor.

26:43 with Taylor. We kicked for about the last 0.4 miles to around a 6 min pace. I really needed to do that fast, I was able to release a lot of energy that has been causing stress. Taylor was very tired afterwards, so was I, but it felt so good to feel that kind of pain. I forgot how much I like pain, and how much voluntary pain improves my attitude. I haven't had any anxiety at all today or on the run with Taylor. I am glad to be back running again.

One with Leigha and the girls in around 10:00, I can't remember. One more without Leigha in around 8:30 I believe.

Half mile with Leigha in 4:40, then 1.5 with the other girls in 13:19.

One with Leigha in 10:05, then 1 with the other girls in 8:57.

I cannot remember the times exactly but I believe Leigha got around 10:20 and the others got around 8:30.

I did not run. I hope I can find a way to run with Taylor again without panicking so much.

Ran about 2.5 miles with Taylor in 20:22. I have finally been able to somewhat control the anxiety so I got to run with him again. It's been about 2 weeks since I ran with him. I have a lot to learn still, and the fear is definitely still there. After running with him I went to the Pachev's and did one with Leigha, Mary, and Bella. They got 10:05 except Mary got 10:25. Then did one with Just Bella in 7:53. Mary was too exhausted to do her second. Bella is hilarious. She told me how when she is running a race she will pinch herself and if the pain of the pinch is more than the pain of running she will go faster because she knows she can tolerate more pain. She kept telling me to speed up because she had too much adrenaline. She said she wanted to slow down after going too fast but it is funny because she was having a hard time slowing down to a comfortable pace. I am very similar to Bella, and it is very interesting to see her desire to voluntarily push herself beyond her limits.

2.9 with Taylor, I don't remember the time but it was probably at 8:00 pace. 2 with all the girls in 10:39 and 10:29.