Bunny the Cow

47:45 I think, not sure. 

2 miles in around 16:00 then attempted to do 2 miles. Sasha stopped me at 1.25 with 7:36. It is frustrating because I was doing my best but could not keep up. The workout failed most likely because I didn't sleep enough, eat well enough, or recover all the way. I felt very good the whole day because the flopped workout didn't drain me at all. I had a ton of energy in the morning with only 6.5 hours of sleep and was super excited to do a workout. I just hope it failed only because I needed more sleep. I really need to focus on my health in all areas to get faster. Since college started I have been doing almost all of the wrong things and I'm going to pay for it.

49:58. It was kinda slow but I didn't stop at all. I haven't ran without a stop in a while.

1 in the morning in 8:17 and 4 at night in 24:00.

A mile warmup in 7:52 I think, then did 2 miles in 11:52! The first mile was 5:53. I didn't crash at all and wasn't expecting the first mile to be so nice. I can definitely tell something has changed that is giving me a lot more stamina. I just need to stop worrying about the pain I will feel afterwards and just do my best. Ever since I've been taking iron and running less I am able to feel good right after a workout without stubborn fatigue. I forget that I can actually run faster because I was stuck for so many months and got used to being slow.
I felt good the whole day except I am not eating enough. I need to find a way to eat while at school. If I don't change this I am never going to get much better.

Down the canyon after work in around 33:00 with William.

2 in around 17:00 then did 2 in 13:25 for Stevie's workout. The last 2 were around 16:00. I am happy that the faster 2 miles felt easy. It actually felt just as hard as running easy pace when I was overtraining. Last time I did a run around that pace it felt pretty hard. I feel so much better.

I still need to eat more food during school. It is probably not good to do a workout and then have zero protein till 4:00pm. 

2 in around 16:00, then did 2 in 11:49! The first mile was 5:50, 1.25 - 7:19, 1.5 - 8:53, 1.75 - 10:25. The last 200 meters were in 41. I am having a lot of fun with my progression. I am still not crashing half way through, it feels very smooth throughout. Did the 3 with William in 26:00. 
I fell right when we started running and got scraped up. I fall about once a year. I am just grateful I am done getting blisters from dance. I'll take scapes any day.

 I am especially grateful that it is easier to recover. I don't feel dead after running really hard and can still do my normal tasks. Before, I would get home and lay in bed for hours. I also have much better work and school stamina.

47:56. Got a Vasa membership. I hate spending money but I feel like I should waste it on this. I am curious to see if weight training can improve my running. I did some shoulders and core with Josh. I need to make a plan that will support running.

3 with William in 24:45 and 1 by myself in 7:42. It is amazing how I now have energy to work 10 hours and run some while not sleeping enough at all. 

Did a mile warmup and then did 2 in 12:17. I haven't slept enough the whole week and was super sore still from Monday. It's kinda nice to know that my bad day is just as good as what my all out effort used to be.

I worked all day and went to dance class for the first time since May I think. There is never enough time. 
The day was mentally torturous. Since Tuesday night I had a lot of repressed memories that I just now remembered. It was such a dark and confusing memory that I completely forgot about it till it got triggered. If there weren't others that told me it did happen I would have thought I made it up myself.

49:30. I couldn't fall asleep till 4:30 and got up at 7:30. I was able to run but when I got back I was miserable. Skipped a class the first time this semester.

48:42. After a mile I did one fast with Sasha and a random guy in 5:47. My hamstrings are sore and have a cold since Thursday. Probably got sick from being stressed.

48:28 with William. The trauma that I experienced is not giving me anxiety anymore. Talking to my mom helped. I am grateful for all the people in my life who make me so happy! I am also getting much less flashbacks and it doesn't make me panic anymore!

2 with Julia in 17:38 and 2 with the girls in 18:40 I think. The anxiety was gone all day but when talking to a boy I started to panic from flashbacks. I feel like I am victimizing myself, but at the same time what happened is serious. I wasn't exactly hurt when it happened but it feels like my soul is wounded. This has been a problem for 2.5 months, and I fit the criteria for PTSD. I think I am resolving it on my own but if it goes on I should go to therapy. I don't like playing the victim but I shouldn't be experiencing this much anxiety about a memory.

Did a mile and then did 2 in 12:10. I fell back at 1.5 with 9:02. 3 home with Matthew in 25:23. I haven't slept enough and I am stressed from school. I just want to sit and cry, but I have too much to do. But I am happy that I am not a slave to my fear anymore and I am not as disturbed by bad memories.

Did 4 with William in 32:30 I think.

48:52. Doing a lot better mentally, I need to focus on more positive things.

Did a mile in 8:00 then attempted a workout. Ran as far as I could while staying on 6:00 pace. Did 90, 87, 90, 90, 90, 94. Stopped at 1.5 with 9:01. Did the last 3 in around 25:00. My running has been horrible all week. I am exhausted from anxiety, school, and lack of sleep. I am a mess but doing my best to get back on track.

47:21 in like 85 degrees; it was hard. William was on the bike while I ran. 

1 in 10:22 and 1 in 9:27 with the girls. Did 3 with Julia in around 27:00. I'm still struggling mentally from the trauma long time ago. Just having minor panic attacks throughout the day. It's been very hard to focus on school lately.

Did a mile warmup then went as far as I could holding 6 min pace. Got to 1.5 in 9:06. I am still struggling mentally and not sleeping enough. I feel like I'm being very dramatic but I should get help. 

Around 8:20 pace for all of them. Did 400 meters on the track with William, he got 68, I got 73. Even though I get the most anxiety around William (He reminds me of the person a bit), William is helping me get better mentally. He is teaching me to worry less I guess because he is safe. I also signed up for therapy today.

49:13

2 mile warmup, don't know the pace. Went as far as I could holding 6:00 pace. Made it to 1.25 with 9:03 (last quarter was in 95). Ran home with william in 8:00 pace.