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Location:

Draper,UT,

Member Since:

Jun 21, 2011

Gender:

Female

Goal Type:

Other

Running Accomplishments:

800m- 2:23

1600m- 5:10

1 Mile- 5:12

3200m-11:03

XC 3 mile-17:55

XC 5k- 19:00

XC 6k- 22:25

Local 5k- 18:42

Local 10k- 41:31

Local 15k- 1:03:55

Unofficial Half (2020)- 1:45:46

Official Half (2021)- 1:49:28

60% (5 miles)- 32:32 (6:30 average)

80% (3 miles)- 18:52 (6:17 average)

16x400s- 82.0 average

20x400s- 82.6 average

SUU Road Race- 23:30 (3.9 miles/6:02 average)

Short-Term Running Goals:

Get up to 45-50 miles/week

Run a sub-19:30 5k again

Train for and race a half marathon

Long-Term Running Goals:

18:45 or under 5k

Run a marathon

Personal:

25 years old

I graduated from East High in 2015 and received a full-ride athletic scholarship to run for SUU. In 2016, I served a mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I was sent home early due to depression and nannied for a few months before returning to SUU in fall of 2017. I ran for SUU again, losing my mission weight and getting back into shape. In spring of 2019 I was forced to emergency withdraw from the semester due to severe depression and received 11 ECT treatments along with meds and a diagnosis of bipolar 2 disorder. I then decided on a whim to transfer to BYU-Idaho the following semester, and struggled majorly there to even pass my classes due to depression. The following spring semester, exactly 1 year later, I again had to emergency withdraw from the semester due to severe depression and was again hospitalized. I then decided to drop out of school for a minute and work so I could pay off medical bills. I worked full-time and eventually paid off all my medical bills. In January of 2021 I went back to school online through SUU taking two more classes and graduated with my Associate's degree in July of 2021. Also in July of 2021, I got a new job working with special needs adults and teenagers. I loved it.

I'm currently between jobs, my mental health got bad again and I went to an inpatient hospital, a residential treatment center, and then a partial hospitalization program, and now I'm in an Intensive outpatient program. My goal is to learn how to thrive and not just survive. Surviving is what I've been doing for years, so it's going to be hard to learn how to truly enjoy life. But I'm grateful for the opportunity. 

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Miles:This week: 5.80 Month: 8.30 Year: 57.15
Adidas Distancestar Spikes Lifetime Miles: 3.00
Adidas Boston 7 Lifetime Miles: 430.33
Nike Pegasus 34 Lifetime Miles: 493.60
Nike Pegasus 34 II Lifetime Miles: 365.31
Nike Pegasus 36 Lifetime Miles: 480.43
Nike Pegasus 36 II Lifetime Miles: 319.00
Nike Pegasus 37 Lifetime Miles: 21.30
Total Distance
14.75
Nike Pegasus 34 II Miles: 14.75
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Total Distance
2.75

Easy run after therapy

Nike Pegasus 34 II Miles: 2.75
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3.00

I spend so much time worrying and stressing out about my job performance at work, but every time I am baffled by my bosses comments about how I'm doing amazing and all the clients love me etc. today I wrote up monthly reports and sent them in, but was stressing wondering if they were good enough. Then my boss texted me saying they were amazing and great work etc. 

It's left me thinking I shouldn't be so hard on myself and that I should have more confidence that I can do a good job.

To be perfectly honest I was this _ close to quitting my job, but as time goes on the more I love my job. It's kinda crazy but I think I'll be here a while. Which is new for me. I switch jobs a lot. But hopefully that'll change. 

Nike Pegasus 34 II Miles: 3.00
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3.00

3 in the cold rain. I picked up the pace so my out of shape butt was feeling it. Honestly I'm embarrassed that this pace was comfortably hard. It's been a long time since I've gone below 9:00 pace as sad as that is. But I feel accomplished. Got that familiar feeling in my lungs that lets me know I worked hard. 

Just for reference, my mile splits were 8:37, 8:08, 8:27. So nothing to shout about but something that was satisfying for me after having gotten into the 9:20 pace gig.

I'm making it a goal to run every day this week. 

Nike Pegasus 34 II Miles: 3.00
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Well the whole let's run every day this week really didn't pan out... I guess I just got busy with other things. I worked late one night, then another I decided to go hang out with some friends, another I went to a haunted house, and the rest... idk. I need to be better about setting time aside for running.

Well I guess another day I was helping my parents move stuff out of their basement so they could remodel. A couple of boxes were my old personal stuff. I went through it today. Old journals, scrapbooks, pictures, running medals, and letters from people close to me. I was laughing because I found a story I'd written for my sister Hattie and it was so random, then deeply touched when I found a letter from my old YW President. She passed in February 2019. She took in my brother when he became too difficult to live at home (he has anger issues and mental illnesses, it's hard to explain why that was so necessary but it was for the best). So finding that letter was sweet but also hard. I miss her. 

Nike Pegasus 34 II Miles: 3.00
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Total Distance
3.00

I didn't bother setting a goal to run every day this week because I knew it was going to be crazy. My boss is out of town so I picked up a couple of extra shifts. However, I think running every day is too ambitious of me right now, so I'm going to make the goal to run 3 times next week because that seems more obtainable. If I run every day then awesome! But 3 days is my goal.

Easy 3, 8:50 average

The good news is that I've finally really stabilized my mood, we upped a dose of my medication and it's helped a lot. It's kind of crazy to think back to before I started taking medication/before ECT treatments when I thought it was normal to cry every day. Haha psych it's not. So glad to be past all of that. 

Nike Pegasus 34 II Miles: 3.00
Night Sleep Time: 0.00Nap Time: 0.00Total Sleep Time: 0.00
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Total Distance
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Nike Pegasus 34 II Miles: 14.75
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