I'm going to start running again tomorrow. I've been sick and the air has been terrible. But it's time I get into it.
I discovered a new song that I'm obsessed with today: Go to war by Nothing more.
TJ and I took a break for a month ish. But we met up on Valentine's Day and decided to try things again taking it slow. I'm feeling overwhelmed actually by dating. Feeling a lack of motivation and general lack of confidence/ low self-esteem. Feel like TJ is out of my league. So I kind of want to focus on myself for a minute to help build back my self-esteem. I just don't feel like a very cool person haha. TJ is so hard working, he has 3 jobs- full-time at the fire department, he runs a contracting business, and he works at Riverton hospital 1-2 days a week. I just barely bumped up to one full-time job, so I feel like compared to him I'm not that interesting. Lol. Idk, I need to just be more confident in myself. I don't really know what sets me apart from other people, I kind of feel like nothing does. Eh. Whatever.
What I do know is that I care deeply about other people, I can be very empathetic, I'm a decent writer, a decent runner (when im motivated and actually train), and a decent artist (when I actually draw lol). I find a lot of fulfillment in my job working with special needs. I know I'm a kind person, I just think I'm a little lost in life right now. I probably just need to focus on myself for a while. Idk.
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