Snowy run. Took it easy, 8:01 average. Felt nice, I was able to work through some thoughts.
I’ve narrowed down part of my decision. Truth is, I don’t want to quit track or cross country. I know it’s stressful, I know that it’s difficult, but I really do enjoy it. And more opportunities might open up within the next couple years to travel if I continue to improve, and even if my situation stays the same the whole time I’d still love to work hard to improve off my high school times. Even if it’s just one meet. I don’t want to give up on that just yet, and I can use workouts as measurements of improvement and find joy in that. Also, by continuing to run I’ll most likely still have a scholarship. And really, there are so many benefits from it like the available resources for student-athletes and the positive effect running and exercise in general has on depression. Having a team and coaches counting on me to be at practice helps me to get out and run on the days my depression is particularly debilitating.
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