Sorry it's been a week... lol.
So I had to add back the lithium because I kinda tanked. So we started that back up last night, it should take a few days for it to take full effect.
I'm getting mixed signals about how long I'll be here, my therapist said I have authorization until the 23rd from my insurance then they'll do another evaluation to see if I can stay longer. But my case manager said she had put in my discharge date as the 15th. So not sure which it is, I'm guessing the 23rd one is more accurate but I'm not sure. That's just a long time to be here hahaha
After this I'll be going to IOP. Hopefully back at Salt Lake Behavioral Health like I was at before.
Went running in the evening, I was struggling mentally and needed to get out running so I did. It's been a hard week. I did some really hard, but I'll admit courageous things this week. My left hip was randomly hurting to walk but running it felt fine so... weird
Today I experienced the most intense cravings/impulses to drink alcohol. I got up and came back to PHP as soon as they got really strong, but damn. I think that's a sign I should never drink alcohol again, because I don't know when to stop drinking once I get started. And my suicide plan surrounded overdosing on alcohol and my meds, so I should probably be really really careful about that. It's just hard when you crave it.
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