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Wasatch loop

Wasatch loop plus a little more

Started out with Shriner's then went down memory grove and up south temple. It was in the middle of the day so I was beat and ready to be done once I got to 1300 E. I had a good 2.5+ miles left to run before I'd be home, so in the dreaded heat I accepted defeat and called my mom, who sent my dad to pick me up lol. Afterwards I was trying to justify eating a ton of pickles, told my dad that it restores the sodium lost through sweat but my dad says it's not healthy because of the vinegar but hey electrolytes are electrolytes. I believe it's pickle juice that's better for that but meh pickles are crunchy and delicious

Wasatch loop

Today was an AM shift, right after a PM shift last night so I wasn't able to slip in a run this morning. After work (got off at 3) I went on a hike (the Living Room), then decided to do VA loop at like 9 PM. I wasn't originally going to go, I have lost motivation this week. But I needed to run out some emotions, it was somewhat effective

Wasatch loop + zoo. Felt good to get out and run.

This weekend something happened that was a trigger, started the depression spiral. I'm working to put a stop to it and turn things around. I've never been able to before, but I've never really recognized the spiral for what it was before I was already deeply depressed. I think my meds have helped stop me from dropping so low so fast. Or maybe just in general. So, I choose today to do the things that I know keep me healthy and happy and stop allowing myself to spiral, as much as is in my control. There's a sense of comfort and familiarity in being depressed and part of me just wants to let go and live there, odd as it sounds. I mean, I've been depressed for 11 years... it's what I know. But I'm here today not to move backwards, but to move forwards. Rather than stop taking my meds (as has crossed my mind a few times), rather than self-harming, I can choose to move forward, keep up with running, go to work, and hope that the future holds good things.

As my therapist said, we want to keep me going on the path to self-love, and not fall back on the path of self-hate. 

Things I'm proud of myself for doing today:

1) Going running - it was tempting not to, but I knew I'd feel better if I went. I'm thankful for a healthy outlet that is so enjoyable to me.

2) Getting through work- this week is especially stressful. While I didn't get everything done I was supposed to, I was also doing twice the work since I was over two stations. It's a crazy week for everyone. 

Wasatch loop

Decided last minute to go up to our family cabin with my mom and sisters, I had work off for the rest of the weekend so it worked out. T'was a good time! Ran 2 laps around the island

Wasatch loop, felt really good surprisingly

Wasatch loop + zoo

Started with Shriners run then took 11th Ave down through memory grove, south temple back up to 1300 E and 900 S back home. Felt alright, not stellar but not terrible. The cooler temperature felt really nice. I didn't bring my watch but kinda regret it, I might start trying to get into the habit of bringing it with me again. I did have my phone with me so I used the Nike run app to get the distance starting from the 4 mile mark (usually where I turn around on Shriners run- up on 11th Ave at the stop sign just past the fire station). The last 8 miles averaged out at 7:56. I was just running at an easy pace, maybe one of these days I'll start actually training and doing both quicker runs and longer runs each week, idk. 

Honestly can't remember if I ran today

Same with this day... maybe I should start bringing my watch so I don't have to wrack my brains trying to remember. This brain doesn't remember much these days. 

Wasatch loop

Wasatch loop + zoo. I love night runs. This was after a long day of work and running just felt so good. Except, a pain in my right ankle/foot. It was hurting on Saturday as well, but not enough to be a major concern. But today, when I got up on Wasatch (about 3, 3.5 miles in) it started hurting so bad I had to stop. I wondered if it was because I tied my laces too tight, so I loosened them even though they were already fairly loose. That did away with most of the pain. And I was stubborn and wanted to run so I continued with the longer loop. Once I took my shoe off at home it didn't hurt at all, even when I palpated it. Well it only hurt slightly. Hmmm.... Idk what it could be, wish I was an athletic trainer so I'd know lol

Hiked the Living Room trail this morning. Opted not to run to give my foot some rest.

Today I ran with Olivia, she's training for a marathon. She's following a training plan her uncle created, and today was a mile warmup, 2 miles in 18:00, and a mile cool down. We did it in 18:20. 

I would've gone for more afterwards, but my foot was hurting. Not severely, but still above a 6 on a scale from 1-10. I decided to rest it. I'm leaving for Island Park tomorrow, so I might just take the rest of the week off as well to give it time to heal. It might just be a bruise from tight shoe laces, or it might be something more than that, but I want to play it safe. 

Olivia invited me to run the St. George marathon with her and her family. I'm seriously considering it. I was just thinking I wanted to train for something, then here comes this opportunity! But I'm going to sit on it for a little bit, I think I'm manic right now so I don't want to be impulsive.

Wasatch loop. Felt the time off. I was still a bit sore from wakeboarding this past weekend. My foot was fine up until 2 miles in, then it gradually worsened. At the end it was worrying me. As soon as I stopped and took off my shoe at home it was fine. It doesn't hurt unless I'm running. Weird? Idk what to do

Took today off to rest my foot some more