I had the chance to go running but it was dark and cold and when it came down to it I didn't really wanna :( regret regret regret. Tomorrow!
I'm a little sore :0
What I've been wondering lately is what good has come from 2020? Everyone wants to complain about it, and there's lots to complain about, but what good, if any, has come as a direct result of our challenges?
I've had a particularly difficult year what with a half suicide attempt, a difficult break-up (we were all but engaged- seriously talking marriage and I'd tried on the ring), a difficult diagnosis of bipolar disorder that I'm still trying to sort out, and the uncertainty regarding significant memory loss and the fear that it'll be another major diagnosis- but also the fear that I might not ever know what's wrong. All that on top of COVID and the year we've all had- where is the good?
One good thing is that it's brought me closer to my family. Another is that I've learned how to accept myself the way that I am- even when others don't. I've learned that what you think about yourself is directly related to your health. And I've learned that things aren't always black and white, that things can be both of the opposing sides at the same time.
And probably most importantly- 2020 has given me another chance at life. I get to start over and reset. I can take this time to recover and get back on my feet. The beginning of 2020 brought about destruction, but the end of it has brought healing and improvement.
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