Well... I deferred my half marathon entry to next year. It was obvious I'm in no shape for a half marathon. I was struggling on a 3 miler today and ended up walking a quarter mile of it. But it's okay. I'm feeling more motivated now to run. Hence why I got out and ran today. We'll see how long that lasts though haha.
I had therapy again today and my therapist asked me where I thought my mood was at and I said I thought I was coming out of depression/entering into an upswing and she said she could tell. I seemed happier and brighter. It always surprises me when she can tell just off of my countenance.
I also learned today that I could ask my work for a mental health day if I need it. Because bipolar disorder is a disability, they have to allow for it. Same with doctors appointments like therapy and psychiatry, but I've managed to not disclose what my appointments are for thus far. Idk why but I'm a bit more wary of disclosing my disability in an employment setting, and I have a hard time seeing myself actually asking for a mental health day because it's never even crossed my mind, I feel obligated to go to work no matter what. And thankfully in 18 months I haven't gotten so low that I can't get out of bed. But it's nice to know that if that were to ever occur again I can ask for a day off.
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