4 x 30 seconds of RUNNING at PT. After my first surgery I could not wait to get running again and after the last one I have almost no real desire to run to the point that my new PT made me. I just don't feel entirely healed and ready, but my strength and range of motion are nearly equal so everyone's telling me to go for it. It felt fine, but my heart really isn't in it. What I am trying to figure out is where that lack of desire is coming from. I think part of it is FEAR, that I don't want to do anything to screw this hip up and have to go through yet another surgery. Part of it is ACCEPTANCE, that running may not be part of my life anymore and if I get to a point where I can bike and hike and ski I will be happy. And mostly, I think I am just so darned TIRED of doing clamshells. I am pretty sure a 2-year injury will drain some of the stoke out of even the most STOKED person :)
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