I haven't been doing the greatest over the last few weeks... I was feeling good and about 3 weeks ago I started being spotty with my meds. Then a week ago Thursday I stopped taking them altogether. My therapist says that this is very common for those with bipolar disorder to do- trick themselves into thinking they're fine or cured and don't need meds. Obviously that's a lie because I'm back in the hospital, yet again. 5th time's the charm, right? This time after prompting from my therapist I sought out help myself. Sometimes to be honest I wish I'd have just gone through with my plan because living is stressful and hard work and I don't really want to do it anymore. But I know this is only temporary and once my lithium levels are back up I'll feel better. Hopefully.
Also randomly this morning I threw up? Weird. I was feeling really nauseated when I woke up. But I've been able to hold down food since then. The nurse thinks it might be a side effect of one of my meds, after starting back up on such a high dose after so long of not taking it. But idk it was weird.
Anyways on Monday they will check my lithium level and then we'll go from there.
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