Sock tans

On Thursday I have neuropsych testing for my memory loss. I'm pretty nervous about the whole thing, not necessarily the testing but what it might find. I will find out those results on December 9th when I see the neurologist again. If they are inconclusive, then we'll see about doing an MRI.

I'm told this testing is frustrating for those being tested because when they find a weakness they nab at it until they really understand the full extent of the disability, which means really zeroing in on that weakness. 3 hours of that.

It's coming up on a year since I started trying to get in to see a neurologist (in December). I think COVID helped with that. I'm glad that it's finally happening, but I'm nervous.

My mom says I've done this testing before, once when I was 6 and once when I was 17. I don't remember it. Another one of those moments where it was significant enough to where I should remember it, but I don't. It's terribly frustrating. She said the results back then showed I had short-term memory loss. When I asked her if it was even worth doing again if I've done it before she said yes, that my memory has gotten a lot worse since then. Well look at that folks I'm a real-life Dory

I saw Sasha's comment before I left and decided to switch things up. I ran to the East High track and did a lap, stretched and did 2 strides before starting. I did 2x400 aiming for sub-2:00, but hoping for sub-90. I hit 83, 90. Then ran back home.

Like Sasha suggested, I'm going to try doing a 400 every run aiming for sub-2:00. Thank you Sasha :)

Out and back on Foothill. I didn't end up doing the 400 because it was dark and snowy and I wasn't sure if the track would be open :/ next time.

3 miles with Ashley on a trail right behind Lagoon

We're going to start running together once a week. I'm excited

Wasatch loop. I just haven't been motivated to do the 400. I haven't been motivated much about anything. It's just a symptom of my depression. However, I really want to get back up to 30 miles a week, maybe even 40. I've lost a lot of strength because I've been doing next to nothing for the past couple months, so I'll have to build up slowly. First starting with running every day, even if it's only 3 or 4 miles. Then increasing mileage. I want to get back to doing long runs that are 10+ miles each week. I just have to find the motivation and dedication to run when I'm tired from work and my depression is telling me to go to bed. I need something to work hard for, I need to be putting in more effort than I have been. And that goes for more than just running. I need to set new goals and figure out what the heck I'm doing with my life.