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Lots to say today:

1) The Score's new album is AMAZING (one of my coworkers is also a fan of this band, not many people know about them unfortunately but I saw them in concert in 2017 and I showed him the picture I had with them today and it was hilarious cause he was dying. Tbh they're one of my favorite bands and I'm so glad I found them while they're not as famous, they have the potential to be big one day and are getting big slowly but surely. Their music is in a lot of trailers. I FOUND THEM FIRST lol

2) I finally have a neurology appointment set for Wednesday... it was a surprise when they called because I'd literally just been thinking when are they going to start seeing people, and when will I get in? I've been on the waitlist since February. It's a virtual appointment so I'm guessing this is just a describe what's been going on kind of an appointment then if needed a second appointment will get set up for me to come in person. When I think about it too seriously I get really nervous, because what if I have a major disease? I do want answers, but at the same time... I already have a tough diagnosis of bipolar II disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and major depressive disorder. Can I handle another one? But let's be honest it's probably just my fetal alcohol syndrome. In any case it'll be good to get checked out and know once and for all.

3) Saturday marks 5 months out of the hospital. It doesn't feel like it's been that long. It feels like 2. But it's cool to look back at the progress I've made since then. These past 6 months have been some of the hardest months of my life- coming back from wanting to die every day is no easy task. But I'm proud of where I am now, which wouldn't have happened if I hadn't decided to try to get better. I could've been my stubborn self and done everything in my power to die and I'm sure I would've succeeded, but I decided to take the harder route and live. And I think that's something I should be proud of, because now I get to live and have experiences I would've missed out on if I'd decided to pass on.

Original plan was to go to the East high track, but football was there and I didn't feel like running laps around them. So I went to Liberty park instead.

I did a wood chip lap warmup then stretched and did a stride or two. I did a mile hard starting at the white line 1 mile mark along 700 E (we started here in high school whenever we did tempos and tbh I don't know which start line is the correct start for this set of painted marks) and went to the 2 mile mark. It was windy and popping with people. Made it hard to be weaving in and out whilst trying to remain 6 ft away from everybody. I probably picked a bad time to go to Liberty.

I hit 6:01. It wasn't all out but it didn't exactly feel easy either. I was happy with it though, surprised a little by it. I was going for 6:15. Maybe one day soon I'll attempt for a sub-6:00, ideally on a track next time. As for accuracy, I went off my garmin's beep. I'd say it was accurate give or take 2 seconds. Did this because of all the weaving in and out and the fact that I couldn't see where the two mile marker was as I crossed it (whoops)

Did another lap then finished cooling down out and back on 700 E

At my neurology appointment today he ordered a bunch of labs and also a neuropsych exam, which he said I probably won't get in for about a month since there are only a few of the specialists that perform these exams. It's 3-4 hours of testing and he said it can be kind of frustrating for the patient because they tailor the test to where your weaknesses are so they can really examine them. Sooo that'll be fun.

The labs are to rule out infections that can cause memory loss, though he expects them to come back negative. It's just to be sure, because why go through all this expensive testing if it's something simple? After the neuropsych exam we'll reevaluate and determine if an MRI is needed.

I also had a psychiatry appointment this morning and she ordered labs too. So I decided to knock them all out at once cause why be pricked more than once if you don't have to? It was a lot of blood.

She said that my creatinine was slightly elevated but everything else on my last labs was good regarding kidney function so she's not worried about it, but these labs today are just to be sure. We may have to readjust medications again in a month, but for now they're staying the same. Which is good because they've been helping a lot.

I was planning on running after work today, but a 9 hour shift turned into a 12 hour shift and I had a huge mishap with my car keys, didn't end up getting home until midnight. At that point I was just done with the day lol. At least I get overtime pay #blessed

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