Okay so I haven't run in... over a week. It's looking like that half marathon might have to be deferred to next year cause I just haven't had the motivation to train for it this year. I feel bad about it but it is what it is.
On another note Imagine Dragons dropped their new album tonight and I'm stoked about it. They're my all-time favorite artist.
So how's life? I'm struggling financially but what else is new? Currently in a big debate over whether or not I should keep my job or get a new one. Don't know if this is my bipolar cycle getting to me, probably. There are some really good aspects of my job but some really sucky ones at the same time. And I'm not getting paid very well. I'm in a depressive swing. Have been for a solid 18 days. It's fuuuuun. Hehe. Not really. No suicidal thoughts for a year. Still going to weekly therapy but considering dropping to every other week. Despite being depressed I'm doing quite well. I'm not to the point of tears depressed. Just my usual withdrawing and keeping to myself, feeling tired and less motivated than usual. But I am learning ways to be still and in the moment so as not to be anxious, which is nice. And the up side is that I'll be hypomanic sooner or later haha :) or maybe that's a downside too... ah well hypomania is more fun than depression.
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