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I ended up getting a second job and started this past weekend. I'm working every day of the week, which is a lot. 56 hours a week. I only plan to have it until I can pay off my personal loan, my car repair loan, and my credit card. So probably for 2ish months.
I'm not really wanting the second job but desperate times call for desperate measures amiright? I can deal with having it two days a week.
I'm thinking I'm going to focus on bettering myself for the next couple months. Financially through the second job, physically through running, and emotionally through therapy and meds.
I was really struggling yesterday, a little bit of a depression going on but nothing near what I've experienced before. My therapist thinks my crisis yesterday was not anything bipolar related, but rather trauma related. I've had many triggers. I'd rather not say what they were, but it has been a tough month. And it probably just became a lot for me to handle, so my thoughts went to dark places and had a mini existential crisis.
The good thing that came from therapy is that my therapist has said I've made a complete 180 degree switch ever since I started doing ketamine. So crazy how much of a difference it's made.
I had a good discussion with my dad tonight about many things, and then my mom as well, and I just have a lot to think about.
I came up with a plan last week, that I'm pretty excited about. But I'm still going to mull it over because my dad says he thinks it's an impulsive decision, but I disagree. I think it's a great idea. But of course I will weigh what anyone has to say.
My plan is to go back to school either in the fall or spring 24. I'm hoping for fall honestly but we'll see what life brings. I'll major in either psychology or exercise science and make the other my minor. Then I'll pursue a Master's degree depending on which major I chose and what I've decided I want to do for a career. I've at least narrowed it down to those two fields, lol. And if I decided, I could get my masters in SPED (no prerequisites required), which opens up a whole other career path.
My dad's not too gung ho on the idea. But I think it's a great idea, and doable with FAFSA grants and student loans. But it's just kind of a wait and see what life brings kind of deal.
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