My social worker spoke with me this morning before the first group meeting. She said I look brighter and better than I did when I first got here. I'm a little more present and pay more attention to the interactions of people around me. I feel a little better too, I don't want to hurt myself anymore so that's a plus. That deep darkness/sadness/despair is mostly gone. On a scale from 0-10 on how I'm feeling, 10 being the highest and 0 being the lowest, I'm about a 5 today. That's improvement from a 3 yesterday and a 2 the day before that. Today is a rest day, I will resume ECT tomorrow. If I keep improving I should be set to go home early next week, then finish out the ECT treatment every other day by coming back here to UNI. They also doubled my Prozac dose today, so now I'm at 40 mg. Not sure why? I must say, I'm surprised at how much the ECT has helped. I'd given up hope that anything would work since none of my antidepressant medications were doing anything except giving me side effects.
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