Believe to Achieve

after 11.5 hour drive yesterday head was spining. hubby had tk work so all driving to phoenix and back on my own in rental car with my daughters. feeling doubtful of my abilities espec when i am having shoe drama and sciatic pain and knee pain. but ran 8 easy....3 with amber slowly. she wasnt happy about running today as her soccer coach asked the team to run 3-5 miles. then i ran five more trying once more to like my new shoes and it is just not gonna happen. anyway....i am gonna stay with april at boston hang on for dear life and enjoy the ride if u see me on athlete alerts and i suddenly slow.....think positive .. i probably stopped to help someone. i honestly am in very deel doubtful do do here been so busy with work and kids and home that it just isnt sinking in that i am running it. not long now. may the running gods show uo to help me :-)

nada. called into work. so busy head still spinning.

so busy with work I can barely think about the marathon.  No time to run. Brookes soccer was at half time when I got off then got home at 8pm.  Just not worth it.  My left leg/sciatica is giving me tons of grief.  I hope this is just pre race break down.  But it is not fun.  It hurts from my SI joint to the bottom of my foot and a lot in my knee on the side and below cap.  Still gonna fight it out.  Have a lot to squeeze in at Boston with family so not sure how I will show up to the race.  April and I are gonna try our best together :D.  So happy we decided to hang with each other.  We are both capable.  We don't know where our fitness is right now.  No races to show for it.   My five K in February was run under the most depressive coming off hormones thoughts that I can't count that.  And I flaked on a 10 mile race pace run cause work and life got in the way and I was too tired so didn't make it up.  But I am confident I can pull myself out of this and run the best I am able given weather and circumstances.  April will make it feel a lot better :D.  

5s. ran one mile wu. 4x400 at 6pace. and one 800 at 6:37. leg feels terrible. lots of pain...sciatic nerve? disc? calf and shin also irritTed. hoping for a miracle.

idk what is going on left leg is bad from psoas to piriformis to knee to shin to foot. it has to be a disc? from fall skiing. cause i tried running two miles a d it went numb and tingly. i am worried that i am so focused on this pain that i cant focus on race at all. or this is my stupid pain syndrome they call fibromyalgia...hate yhat diagnosis. the pain is a 7/10 and words to numbers that means hard to focus on other activities. 10 being nothing else matters. hooing a good nights rest will relieve it watched The secret life of Walter Mitty with my cousins on tv . was funny. enjoyed it. it is 1140 pm here and i am wide awake as it is 940 pm at home. miss home and family but so have missed my cousins! love them. Almost forgot...ran at 7pm here 2.5 miles a 1.25 mile loop twice. just to get my body moving from long flight yesterday and pain tester . i feel very rusty and scared to death about a marathon monday truthfully. the only hope i have is my friend alril to get me through.