Sock tans

2 miles easy in the snow. 8:45 average

I'm going to make an effort to wake up early and go running before work and see if that helps me get out.

2 miles at a good effort, 7:30 average

I signed up for the Deseret News 10k. Hoping to be in good shape by then. I've got 4 months to train :) so I think I'll start by just getting out and doing runs then in May or June start doing tempos and long runs. Trying to enjoy the process without getting burnt out.

I had therapy today, she said I seemed really grounded today. More grounded than she'd ever seen me. She said she's seen a complete 180 switch ever since I started doing ketamine. It feels good to be back in a good spot and know that I do have some control in preventing a mental health crisis. I just have to stay on top of ketamine, meds, and therapy.

I've also done a lot of healing. I didn't use to care whether I lived or died. I thought I had nothing to lose. Now, I have everything to lose. I value my life. I have a future ahead of me, I have people who care about me, and I have good experiences yet to happen.

Didn't run, sad day (haha, but literally tho. Received some hard news today. Noah's likely moving either across the country or to Belgium for a new job opportunity within the next few months. I am pretty heartbroken over it, but hey, that's life right?)

2 miles, 8:11 average. Very windy. 

No running yesterday or today. I literally came home from work at 6pm tonight and by 7pm I was out cold. Long 10hr work day, coupled with little sleep this week called for some catching up on sleep. Now it's 12am and I'm wide awake, lol :) just don't trust that running this late at night is the best idea, so I will wait until tomorrow. 

I registered for the St. George half marathon tonight, I had a deferment from the previous year because I decided not to do it. I'm hoping that the training for the Deseret news 10k this summer will help motivate me to do the St. George half. I think getting in shape is the hardest part.

I know I didn't run every day this week, but I've made progress. Hoping to increase the number of days next week.