My mental health has been kind of in the drain as of late. It's partially why it's difficult for me to get out and run, though a lot of that is also because of the snow. Anyways, this past week has been pretty difficult in particular, Sawyer has helped me out a lot. Today he called my parents and they surprised me by coming to pick me up in Rexburg. Plan right now is to go back to the University Neuropsychiatric Unit at the University of Utah. Sawyer and my parents helped me to load up all of my stuff in the car so now I'm moved out, this was all very unexpected. But probably needed, I've had some severe suicidal ideation. I've broken honor code to stay over at Sawyer's house the past couple of nights just because I didn't feel safe alone or at my house, I also gave Sawyer my entire stash of pills/vitamins because the way I'd have chosen to go was an overdose. I've also been self-harming and tempted to attempt suicide in other ways. So, yeah, basically I'm in a rough spot but now I'm getting help. Hopefully things can improve again. It's been almost exactly a year since I was admitted to the hospital for mental health reasons. Beginning of March/end of February must be a bad time for me. It's a little more complicated this time around because it's not just depression, I've been experiencing mania. Proof that I have bipolar disorder and not major depressive disorder.
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