Out and back on Foothill again. It was a really nice day and I didn't feel like I was ready to be done, but I want to ease back into running and not go to town on mileage then get injured. I probably could've done a few more miles, but I was in the mood for longer. I wanted to soak up the sun. So instead I biked up emigration canyon. I made it to the switchback and up a little ways. I got off my bike to take in the view and ohh my legs. I didn't realize how tired they were until I stopped. But it's cool, it was much faster going down than coming up. From my house to that point and back took me an hour and 32 minutes. Not a real biker haha there were tons of people out biking and passing me but I was happy with it.
This reminded me of how competitive I can get. It helps when trying to run fast for the most part, but sometimes that competitive spirit shows up in other areas when I'm otherwise trying to enjoy myself. Which is perfectly fine, I'm just trying to have a better attitude and stop putting myself down when I don't perform as well as others. This is a trap I've found myself caught in for many years. I keep wanting to tell myself oh, I'm out of shape so as to give an excuse as to why I'm not performing as well as the next person and lower the bar of expectation. But instead what I want to do is be grateful for what my body can do and be accepting of the limits it has. Then work on pushing those limits farther and farther, while still maintaining an appreciation and enjoyment of what my body can do. Rather than being so concerned about what others think of the times or miles I run, because realistically it'll never be enough especially now as I'm getting back into shape, I want to focus on my progress and the improvement that I can make each day. I want to be satisfied with the work I put in and be more forgiving of myself for mistakes that I make. And I want to be more focused on the positives than on the negatives. I want to believe in myself rather than tell myself I can't do something because of this, this and this. I want to believe that anything is possible if I put in enough time and effort into it.
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