I haven't really been running, but a lot's been going on as of late. I'm thinking I'll start up soon, probably next week, because the rest of this week is pretty busy.
I wanted to share something that's been a huge thing for me. In August, I went to the police about something that happened to me while I was in high school and during my first year of college. I discovered while at Recovery Ways that this trauma was still affecting me, even though I had effectively pushed it down for years. I thought I'd processed through all of it, but I was wrong. As it came out in group therapy, the therapists there informed me that it wasn't too late to go to the police about it like I had thought, that there was no statute of limitations. So I called the police, gave them a detailed statement, and then went into the station and answered questions and expanded on my statement. I gave them the names of several other people involved and an investigation was started.
Unfortunately, because this is a public blog, I am a little limited in what I can say about it. At least right now, while the case is still open. However, just last week I had a couple things happen: first, I saw the person I reported for the first time in years at my work. Could have been a total coincidence because I work at a major public place, the airport. But it brought up many emotions, the first one being shock, then panic. But I'm super proud of myself because I handled it well and was able to continue to do my job without being too flustered after I saw him and without bringing attention to the situation or indicating that anything was wrong to my passengers. Second, I got an update from the detective on my case, during which the detective validated that what happened was indeed considered grooming, and in the detective's words if I hadn't been so strong and if I had allowed it, it 100% would have progressed to something criminal. The detective felt so strongly about my case that he's been pursuing it further, I can't really say much about it since the case is still open but that phone call was everything to me. I feel validated hearing a detective from the victims unit tell me that what happened was so wrong in so many ways and was deeply inappropriate, and would have become criminal if I'd allowed it. That's the severity of what happened. I really needed to hear that, so for that reason alone reporting it was the best thing I could have done to support my healing. And now I know that I've done everything in my power to prevent this from happening again with any other minors. But not only that! Even if nothing more comes of it, everything is going down in a police report and if God forbid there are other victims and they were to come forward, it's all going to be on file. And the detective said he'd be talking to the school districts to make sure they know about him and what he did. I'm incredibly grateful to have such a persistent and amazing detective on my case. He said I gave an incredibly detailed account of what happened and tied it to several events/dates, which I guess has helped him out a lot? I'm not sure exactly what he said about that but he commended how detailed I was about what happened, which made me feel like I did something good so that made me happy.
Anyway, that's been a major thing going on in my life, and then you add dating into the mix and I've been super busy. It's been a rollercoaster of a month, let me tell you. But I'm feeling so incredibly good, the prescription ketamine has been helping keep my depression at bay. So I'm happy :)
If you read until here, thank you for supporting me in my journey. I appreciate it :)
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