I will be emergency withdrawing from the semester seeing as I won't be able to go back to Cedar for a few weeks anyways. I feel bad about not being able to complete the semester, but I really, really tried. I quit my job, I dropped 2 classes, I resolved to fail anatomy and focus on my remaining 3 classes in order to still be eligible for cross country next semester, I got help from tutors and my academic coordinator and met with the sports psychologist, then switched to an actual therapist at the hospital rather than waiting after being on the CAPS waitlist for 2-3 weeks. I asked friends and Paul for help, and they did, but I just simply wasn't able to do it no matter how hard I tried. I hold myself to high standards and feel like a failure for it, but my therapist tells me depression is a disability and out of my control so I shouldn't be so hard on myself. But still, it's hard.
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