I've had a realization of sorts the last few days. I have been dealing with a self confidence issues in my running abilities for a while now. It all started with that 8 week injury in January, and then it has been further exasperated by the little injuries afterwards ( PF type thing, phantom knee pain, and now a sore tendon). I feel like just when I work back up to my old self, something will start hurting and my confidence takes a hit again. The injury from the winter and now all the other little ones that keep popping up are all on my right side/leg. It makes me wonder if there is some kind of mechanical issue going on with me on that right side. Anyway, this morning during my short run which was after an hour on the elliptical, I realized that I just need to be happy with what I can do in the moment. I don't want to let the little things deter my vision of the goals I have this year. If I need a running rest for a week, than so be it. I think the mind plays a lot of games with us in our running abilities. Today I just had to dig deep to remember all the adversities I've gone through to get where I am now. I am not going to let a little pain stop me from the things I will accomplish. That doesn't mean I will ignore them and run myself into the ground, but if I am feeling good and run a race, then I won't tell myself that I can't do a certain time. I won't throw a grim outlook on the rest of the summer just because my knee might be bothering me a bit (or a sore tendon!) . I am just going to change my mindset and hope the rest will follow suit. That's all. Happy Tuesday.
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