Of Mice and Marathons

PM: 90' on the trainer (Brasstown). 185W. HR 138.

Anxiety mostly dissipated today. Stressful and challenging, but normal life and day-to-day stuff. A welcomed change. Got some grading done. 

Didn't take any medication today (it's as needed). Realize I need to also mark these as I don't have records of it, just a general sense of the month or a rough estimate e.g. "it was about the time we came back from Maine, but before the semester started."

HR was lower today than expected (normalish for the workout typically), so much so that I checked my WHOOP to see if the chest strap was off (I had a low reading to start but then it straightend out). It was correct. 

Somewhere in season 3 (I think) of Ozark. It's absolutely nutters. 

PM: 90' on the trainer (Phoenix -3). 190W. HR 146.

A good ride. Up and down day mentally with some rapid mood shifts. Better later. The boys went to a friends for almost 3 hours. I got off the trainer and Megan had gone for a run. It was oddly quiet. 

I think the increased riding and positioning of my setup is causing blatter urgency. In running you get injured. In cycling you get weird issues in your parts regions. I think I need to bring the bars up a good deal. Really annoying as I don't really feel like running right now, but I think a few days to get things sorted is best.

PM: 3.5 miles on the treadmill in 35'.

Checked the bike trainer after and the handlebars had slipped. Not sure how long they were like that but the cam lock wasn't tight enough. The issue has caused some urinary tract issues to crop up, which thankfully today I had a followup appointment with my doctor today anyway. Need the issue to go away soon so I can train. Run was pretty blah. Nice today, just didn't want to be too far from the house in case I wasn't able to run.

Felt pretty normal throughout the day and anxious before and after running. I want to enjoy it, but right now I am not. I don't like that feeling.

AM/Lunch: 4 miles, averaged 9:31. HR 152. Did 2 strides.

Didn't want to run, but couldn't ride. It was decent out, especially for December. A short, but good run. Strides felt good. Just did a couple to stretch the legs. 

AM: 60' on the Trainer (Bays). 198W. HR 156.

Rolled the dice. Felt okay. Got a booster after running around to several places because there were errors in the CVS system, which then caused me not to be able to get one at Walgreens.  Ended up getting one. 

Finished grading around midnight I think. Submitted grades. Went to bed directly after. Would have been nice to relex. Boys had a roughish night. 

PM: 90' on the trainer (Brasstown -1). 160W. HR 146.

Spent most of the day with the boys as Megan has work still to do. Mild effects from the booster. Confusion, brain fog, head a little warm and fatigued, but much better than the trouncing from the second shot back in may. 

Tried the last few days to mentally prepare for our trip to my parents'. Conversed with my siblings to make sure the boys have somewhere to sleep upstairs and that there's heat up there. Trying to stay clam and positive. Doing relatively well. Therapy session next week, so I think I will look for some strategies to manage stress, aging parents, and so on.

Ride was decent. Tired and a little disoriented. Apparently, it's okay to exercise after the shots (more research is likely needed for this). It heightens fatigue, but I'm already there. Still, could have done a recovery ride for 60'. Will reevaluate tomorrow.

PM: 90' on the trainer (Zwift). 184W. HR 152.