Well, that was longer than intended... I sorta got stranded :/ lol. At least I got some mileage in.
We met as a team in the centrum for a picture for Alumni something or another since we won conference in Cross. There were a lot of people there for high school basketball state championships, ha. Then Angie, Julieta and Haley were going to do a 60% on farm run, Sharlie and Morgan were going a little later for just a 50%. I wanted to get it over with so I opted for the 60%, and I haven’t done a workout in a while so I thought it’d be good for me. We did it on farm run, I didn’t feel great but that’s kinda the norm now. Oh well.
Mile warmup then started the 60%. We started slower than normal, which actually felt pretty slow surprisingly. I guess I was expecting to have to push it but it was nice and relaxed. 60%s I think are my new favorite workout. Second mile is where it hit me, I got tired real quick. I stopped for a second after 2.25 miles because I felt awful, my stomach was hurting and the fatigue had set in. I thought to myself, “man I just want to go home and sleep.” The new normal. Then I fought that thinking no I can’t sleep all the time! I’m stronger than this. Just finish to 3 miles of the 60%. So after that minute of debate with myself I started again, hit the 3 mile and thought screw it at least go to 4! So I did. But I was so exhausted by then. My legs and lungs felt fine. It was my energy levels that were so low. And my gut was killing me and there was no bathroom in sight. So I called it at 4.
Splits: 6:24.86, 12:49 (6:24.53), 19:24 (6:34.73) - the one with the 1-2 minute break in the middle, 26:06 (6:42.27). Averages out at 6:31.
Then cooled down. We’d left Julieta’s car at the 7 mile mark, though I’d fallen back and Angie needed to be somewhere so I sorta expected them to leave. I should’ve turned back at 3 miles instead of going the whole way. Oh well! Like I said, I got miles in :) very slow, fatigued miles but eh whatever. 9.5 miles total of running, plus I walked about a mile on the way back because I wasn’t feeling it
Coach said practices will start up again on Monday. We’re between seasons right now. And I think coach sensed our team was tired so he gave us a break
I’ve sort of lost my love of running, but I think that’s from the depression. Maybe with workouts starting up again next week I’ll get some of it back. One of my teammates is going through depression and lost her love of running, too. It’s nice to know I’m not alone, even though I don’t see her much anymore. She’s actually the one that informed me about the emergency withdrawal, since that’s what she did. Everyone’s got their own struggles and I think the best thing to do is help others with theirs.
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