Believe to Achieve

Very easy.  Walked two minutes then ran with hubby for 4.4 miles.  Pace easy.  Feel really awful.  Achy.  Pollution high I think.  I smell smoke.  Definitely smoke.  Three hours later the inversion doubled with pollution.  Took it real easy to not scare hubby away again.  Pace 8:54.  So lovely.  

After a looooonnnng shift last night, no down time, I could only sleep 3 1/2 hours, so got up, vacuumed and cleaned a toilet, folded laundry.  No run.  If it were cool and NOT hazy I might have been tempted.  Hope to do a speed TM run tomorrow.   Finally got over my soreness from my big fall.  Arms, shoulders and neck were very sore.  I am still getting a little dizzy when I turn my neck to the left.  It is not as bad as Sunday so I guess I am on the mend.  Sciatica improving, that waxes and wanes unpredictably.  

Time for bed after this workout.....slept eleven hours and still felt "drugged" when I started out on my run to Kim's house for the dreaded TM workout at 910am.  Ran 2.35 in 20:22 (8:42)  miles there.  Got on treadmill and eased into marathon pace over one mile--so a warmup.    At 8.5 miles per hour it was 7:03 (1 percent incline), plan was to do 7 miles.  Kept it there for just under three when I went up to 8.6 mph for a 6:58 pace.  Did that for a mile (miles 3 to 4) then increased to 8.7 mph (6:49) for 1 1/2 miles (4 to 5.5 miles).  Then I put it to 6:40 for a bit then 6:35. Okay now I am getting tired.  Hard to focus on the plug outlet on the wall.  The TV is not up yet at Kim's so all that remains is this outlet to stare at.  She left the new Ensign on the TM but my head bobs too much I couldn't read any of the sentences.  It was ridiculous.  How can some runners read on the TM?  My form must be off.  Last mile I gradually increased the pace each .25 miles, from 9.0, 9.1, 9.2, then 9.3? for the finish (whichever increments end at 6:15 pace, I already lost brain cells to remember).   Ran a "cooldown" mile at 7:30 pace.  Last 30 seconds at 8:15.  Gulped down some water than ran home in 19:37 (8:22).   That felt like slow motion after the TM running.  I am done.  Coma state coming on.  Felt refreshed initially, now drained.  Total mileage on TM 9.03.  Total outside:  4.7.  Overall total:  13.7.

Per Marion's conversion (12 minutes biking = 1 mile running).  Road my bike all over the place at 130pm (when I finally got my brain to want to exercise) for 1:27:29.  Quite enjoyed just going wherever.  Some tough hills that I was like "hey this is my easy day, cool it already".  But the downhill "no effort" from Cedar Hills to PG more than made up for it.  Battling depression lately.  I am pulled in too many directions.  Looking for that light...at the end of the tunnel.  But same old same old... I work the next 5 of 7 nights.  

That in between shorter, long run. I sat on my steps (9:45am) just trying to be motivated.  Started out with hubby.  Slowed him way down, I just had to start way slow because I was completely unmotivated.  First mile 9:48.  Thought it was 10:30 so I guess that is good.  Most uphill but didn't care regardless.  Drug out another few miles at my turtle speed then just went how my body wanted.  Troy left me at mile three to home one more mile for him.  I was going long.  Did a pace check at about mile 4.5 (just under 8?  wooo, feeling glad about that).  Kept going by feel.  Last two miles I thought I was dragging so  I did a pace check where I knew miles. First 7:43 then last mile a speedy 7:21.  That felt easy.  So average pace for those 13.31 miles was 8:25 (course tool).  I took the road less traveled.  You name it, I was running it today.  Just turned this way and that thru AF. One whopping uphill on 700 north to the AF temple.  I was like hey I just ran 11 miles of that kind of uphill last Saturday, no big deal (however minus smog and heat).  Ran around temple then home.  Didn't know mileage but time was getting to where I should have been over 12, my goal.  Well I went over by 2+.  Total mileage (.83 mile cooldown at 8:36 pace)=  14.14. 

At 230pm after roughly 3 1/2 hours of sleep, AGAIN. I thought I should try and get out there. Well the cool breeze changed to a warm one so I wasn't feeling all that energetic about it after the first mile (9:03) so slowed on this long uphill and was physically and mentally just not into it. Ran to the canal thru the "secret passage" off of Canyon Rd just across from the road that leads to AF Temple. Stopped at two miles and just walked for  2.33 miles real slow (18 min/mile), eyes closed to just a crack breathing in and out dreaming my time away. Did not feel like I was ever a runner. Decided to be a walker. Got to 1100 north where it is one mile to my house and decided all right Julie try to be a runner again, so I ran in at 7:18. Sat on lawn in the shade just listening to oldies from the 70s (meatloaf). Stretched, thought about being more positive, like Smooth. Do I count my 2.33miles of walking?