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Bandera 100k--USATF trail 100k championship

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Location:

Wichita,KS,

Member Since:

Sep 14, 2008

Gender:

Female

Goal Type:

Local Elite

Running Accomplishments:

marathon pr:  2:59:49.  Saint George 2011

Praire Spirit 50 mile winner 7:36:30 2013

I accidentally ran 100 miles in November 2013.  it was hard.  I threw up a lot.  decided to do a better job next time

I did it again on purpose October 2014--Heartland 100 winner and CR 17:38:37

Heartland 50 winner May 2014

Psycho Wyco 50k winner February 2012

 

Short-Term Running Goals:

Run enough to hold off the middle-age spread

 

 

 

 

Long-Term Running Goals:

 

Sub 3 hour marathon--SOMEDAY!  Done!

 

New long term goal:  ....run enough to feel kinda like I did when I was fit

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Personal:

I was a single mom.  Two times over.  We all survived, despite the fact that I make atrocious decisions.  Then, I met a man I didn't deserve.  And he loves me so much.  And I love him. We lived in sin and bought a house for two years then hired a judge and officially got married(to our great delight and also the delight of our mothers), then a month later he was diagnosed with cancer.  Well we survived all that and he's 100% fine now.  But, we're really out of shape and really busy with kids and jobs and running just isn't my priority and there's so many other layers to all of it, but I'm running anyway.  This is my failure blog now.  Just to log that one run a week if I snag it.  
Somehow that matters and I want that run recorded.

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Total Distance
10.00

Little speedwork sharpener at the Y treddy. I feel like I'm peaking fitness wise and the timing is good...8 days out.

2 mile warmup

8 x 800 with 400 recovery from 5:56 to 5:46 pace, 2 mile cooldown. Felt great and pretty easy.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From SlowJoe on Sat, Jan 03, 2015 at 07:12:59 from 104.51.208.13

You are looking in tip-top shape!

Hey, I sent you an email about next weekend. Let me know if you didn't get it....wasn't sure if that was still your address.

Total Distance
6.20

easy 10k, no watch. It started snowing while I was running.

Weight: 0.00
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From Burt on Sun, Jan 04, 2015 at 16:08:25 from 174.17.89.12

Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know.

Total Distance
0.00

No run, didn't get off until 8am, after a 14 hour shift, and it was single digits outside.  so no run.  I'm tapering baby.  So excited thought that slowjoe will be pacing me at Bandera!!

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
6.20

Easy 10k on the home treddy. Just breathing and calming. Almost time.

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
5.00

Ez

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Burt on Wed, Jan 07, 2015 at 09:22:38 from 174.17.89.12

Pz.

From Matt Schreiber on Wed, Jan 07, 2015 at 21:05:26 from 66.17.102.175

Looks like Bandera is just about here. Looks like you're ready!

From JulieC on Wed, Jan 07, 2015 at 21:41:51 from 208.54.4.165

Will be thinking of you. Can I follow this race? I will be working. WhT time does it start?

From Tom K on Fri, Jan 09, 2015 at 09:10:34 from 73.27.178.76

This is going to be awesome!

Race: Bandera 100k--USATF trail 100k championship (63 Miles) 12:44:00, Place overall: 19, Place in age division: 7
Total Distance
63.00

That was the most brutal experience of my running life. Details coming this evening when I get to a computer. In a nutshell-I was hoping for a better time and place, but Bandera took many victims that day, and I spent the entire second half in survival mode fighting for every step. I was mostly happy and despondence did not win. I passed one gal in the final miles and was closing on another, 2 minutes back at the last aid station...when the "bonus mile" happened. Tis the nature of the beast stumbling around on a trail in the dark and mist and rain. I'm not disappointed--I got what I really came for, which was to test myself and suffer and stay the course andget my buckle. I got a 7th place USATF medal too, which makes this little podunk Kansas ultrarunner happy!

alright, time for a real race report.  It took a while, my computer is broken and I needed to get to one.

I entered this race to gain experience in a Montrail cup race to maybe take a shot at a Western States entry in the future, plus I thought I would like a shiny USATF medal and the Bandera buckle is awesome, and I have lots of family in that part of Texas so all around it was a good situation.  I didn't have any illusions of being in the top two--the field was stacked with elite ladies from around the country, but I did want top 10 and one of those medals!  I also somehow thought I would run this a lot faster--but more on that to come.

Pre-race travel was pretty brutal, 11 hours by myself in the car on Thursday. Friday I went to the pre-race briefing and it was cold and drizzly--impending doom, Bandera was already getting muddied up and set to suck the soul out of many runner that day.  I saw a few of the running ladies that leave me starstruck but I was too shy to talk to them.  Friday evening I spent with Joe and Danielle(slowjoe from the blog) and they fed me pasta and pie and beer, and put me up for the night.  Awesome folks!  Joe and I discussed a little racing talk, as he would be my "safety runner"/pacer for the last 20 miles.  I slept like a log and was up at 3:45 am and headed to the park.  Once I got there I spent a lot of time resting in my car, reading "unbroken" on my phone, and feeling a bit dismayed at the rain showers.  Finally, at 7:15, I got out and lined up with the rest of the cold runners.  I stood back from the front a bit, and never ran with the lead ladies.

When the gun went off, I fell in pretty quickly with a group of fellas holding what felt like the right pace and we were off.  The rain had made the rocks slippery, and the first miles to the first aid station Nachos were a bit treacherous on the downhills.  Bandera is very technical--rocks rocks rocks.  I felt okay, warmed up, and ditched my rain jacket at the first aid station.  After this we got into some serious mud...the kind of mud that  sticks to your shoes and make you run on birds nest bricks and your shoes are so heavy.  There was no escaping this mud, or how tired it was making my legs prematurely.  By the time we reached the second aid station at Chapas, I knew it was going to be a long day.  Bandera went something like this:  all the flat smooth runnable stuff had become mucked up mud, so any time I thought I was gonna bank there was out the window.  The other parts of Bandera are technical rocky ups and downs.  I stink at those rocky downs, and they were slippery from the rain, and I'm just not skilled on them at all.  I went down slower than I would like so I wouldn't break my face.  I truly wish I could train on trails, but it's just not realistic for my life situation. 
It was, however, quite beautiful!  When we get to the tops of the climbs you could look down into the valley and it was quite breathtaking and pretty!  There isn't really switchbacks--you just hike right up the rocky side and through lots of Sotol cactus.  My legs were numb from the cold so it didn't really hurt but after the race my legs were scratched and bleeding from ankle to thigh.  I felt like I was sucking wind the whole time and panting.

By the time was back at the lodge and the first 50k loop was done, I saw a lot of defeated faces at the aid station.  One gal looked at me and told me she didn't think she could do it anymore.  I don't know if she went back out or not.  I did see Joe!  That was a boost, and he would be waiting for me in 11 miles at Chapas, so I was off on loop two fairly quickly before I changed my mind.  Truthfully, I was already completely exhausted.  My legs were fried from the mud and all the slipping and slogging and my feet hurt from the rocks.  My training didn't prepare me for this kind of terrain.  I pitched all goals other than to not be defeated and finish. I also had a pretty good handle that I was still in the top ten, so wanted to hang on for a USATF medal.  I decided that although it was going to be slow, and painful, and difficult, I was going to get 'er done and enjoy it as much as I could.

I never thought I would make it to mile 42 and Chapas and Joe's company.  It seemed like forever.  Doggedly mudslog, climb and scramble, slip and bumble down, mudslog some more.   Eat gin-gins, drink water, drink ramen broth, keep moving.  I panted like a dog.  I can tell the value in a pacer, because once I finally reached Chapas and Joe was there, my spirits lifted significantly.  Although I was still ragged, exhausted, fatigued deeply, and my legs were shot, it didn't seem so bad!  Joe faithfully slogged along behind me and off we went.

I ran, I hiked, I walked, I ate, I drank, I talked, Joe talked, forward and onward. Sometime along the way we passed a gal.  At nightfall, it got cold, and dark, really dark.  This is where I was really glad to have Joe.  It was pitch black, and the lights reflected back off the mist and I couldn't see well at all.  I slowed down a lot at nightfall because I literally felt as if I was stumbling around in the dark like a blind person. We finally reached the last aid station, and they told me the next gal was about two minutes away. I felt that I could catch her and off down the mudslog we went, and went...until I saw the portapoddies on the back end of the finish line and knew that wasn't right, so we turned around and slogged all the way back to the aid station so I could take the turn I missed.  15 minutes lost per Joe's garmin.  It cost me two places.  This was a little disheartening, but it happens.  Shortly after this I ran out of gas.  I felt all the energy drain out of my body and my legs felt like useless rubber.  I hadn't eaten for a while and the energy costs of the mud and cold were more than I bargained for I think.  I came to a complete standstill and plucked out my emergency cliff gel, double espresso.  I downed that, started moving, still felt like a noodle, and stopped and ate another one.  Within  a few minutes my legs came back to me.  We finally picked our way down the final rocky ascent and as soon as we hit the last half mile of jeep trail to the finish line I took off as fast as I could run.  I bombed right up on three fellas and they all sped up too and we all crossed the finish line very close together.

This is the happiest I've ever been to cross a finish line.  It is definitely the hardest I have ever worked to reach one.  The gal I was creeping up on before I ran my bonus mile was Traci Falbo, one of my heroes, American record holder for a trail 100 and world record holder for 48 hours.  She used to be 80 pounds overweight but that changed!  She clearly wasn't having a great day either, but settled into the mantra of just get it finished. I felt exactly the same way.  Would have been nice to catch up and run in with her!  Dang the missed turn!

Chris was there at the finish line.  He's kinda awesome.  He flew down so he could drive me home Sunday.  Pretty selfless guy!  I can't think Joe enough for his presence and patience, for all those slow hours he spent out on the trail with me.  Danielle and him are great hosts and I hope I can repay them someday!  There were some Canadians I think in front of me so in the championship I was 7th woman, but was 10th in the actual Bandera race.  I accept!  I got my medal I wanted and my awesome snake buckle.  I got mud and blood and sweat and tears.  I cried while we were driving to the hotel when I was alone in my car, mostly because it was just so so hard, and I needed to cry for a minute about it.  I'm slowly recovering and can't wait for the next one--probably Flatrock 101!

 

 

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Burt on Mon, Jan 12, 2015 at 15:15:58 from 174.17.89.12

So cool! Can't wait to hear all about it!

From Matt Schreiber on Mon, Jan 12, 2015 at 21:26:28 from 66.17.102.175

Awesome April. Looked like a mess! Congrats on the medal and the buckle!

From JulieC on Tue, Jan 13, 2015 at 08:18:30 from 63.224.117.53

are you sure you were not 10th overall and 3rd in age division???? at least that is what I read in the results.

From seeaprilrun on Tue, Jan 13, 2015 at 15:03:37 from 208.54.70.170

I was 19th overall, 7th woman in the usatf championship but there were some Canadian women and non championship runners too, so in the Bandera field as a whole looks like I was 10th woman and 26 overall!

From seeaprilrun on Tue, Jan 13, 2015 at 23:47:46 from 205.172.12.210

Details are done!

From SlowJoe on Wed, Jan 14, 2015 at 12:27:54 from 12.182.148.249

Ahhh, you would've caught her! The Curse of Slowjoe (going the wrong way). I told you about the Curse beforehand didn't I? No? I knew there was something I forgot.

From Burt on Wed, Jan 14, 2015 at 12:38:10 from 174.17.89.12

SlowJoe. I love him. But I hate him.

From Tom K on Wed, Jan 14, 2015 at 13:38:51 from 73.27.178.76

Amazing! I love the "birds nest bricks" description. Enjoy some time off. You've earned it, for sure!

From Smooth on Wed, Jan 14, 2015 at 14:57:10 from 70.57.92.82

WOW!!! I don't have words good enough to describe your AWESOMENESS!!! What an incredible endurance athlete and tremendous inspiration you are!!! Thank you for sharing! Love your description of the happiest to cross the finish and the hardest you've ever worked for it. You are a champion through and through!!! :)

CONGRATULATIONS for this epic accomplishment! Recover well and savor the victory!!!! :)

Total Distance
0.00

Having a hard time recovering from this one! The 10 hour drive home Sunday rendered me so stiff and locked up I could barely move. I had to do a lot of errands Monday, so no nap before work Monday night, and I was still a as tiff and sore wreck. It was foolish to go to work, but I'm a single Mom who's pretty keen on getting a full paycheck, so I took ibuprofen in hopes of being physically passable dragging patients and equipment, and off I went. By midnight the pain returned with vengeance, and the vomiting started. We dropped a patient off, I vomited all over the hospital bathroom, then dragged myself over the er doc and consulted a little. He said I had a little rhabdo, but my kidneys could take the ding and I would be fine with a little tlc. I left work, had iv fluids, tons of zofran, more oral fluids, and tylenol, and sleep. 12 hours later I was tired but functional, and stubborn, and worked Tuesday night. I'm fine now, but absolutely exhausted, and glad I have a few days off to really rest. I think I may wait a week or so to run or work out, and just let my body heal as much as possible when not working. This is the worst I have ever felt physically after a race!

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From SlowJoe on Wed, Jan 14, 2015 at 18:55:50 from 104.51.208.13

And then you signed up for Bandera 2016, right?!

The week off is a very good idea...you definitely gave 101% out there, that's for sure.

From Burt on Wed, Jan 14, 2015 at 19:01:19 from 174.17.89.12

Wow! Hope you feel better soon. And I hope Joe feels bad soon. Why am I so mean to Joe lately?

From SlowJoe on Wed, Jan 14, 2015 at 19:02:50 from 104.51.208.13

Your words cut me deep Burt. I'll probably cry myself to sleep tonight. Again.

Total Distance
11.50

Pawnee prairie trails to rails-to-trails with Kyle and Nick.  Legs felt decent, but definitely not 100%.  Was good to get moving again!  Signed up for Flatrock 101k!!

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Burt on Sun, Jan 18, 2015 at 21:56:54 from 174.17.89.12

Flat and on rocks. Sounds great. Certainly better than hills and mud :)

From SlowJoe on Mon, Jan 19, 2015 at 08:23:05 from 107.77.66.21

101k will feel easy after the 102k you did a week ago!

Total Distance
8.00

No school so headed to the Y with Nessa. 8 with about 5 of em 6:40ish pace...nice to stretch em out on flatness. I even did some abs afterward! Focus in February and march will be hills and strength, all the sad little teails I can find nearby, and not much speed. Flatrock is rocky with lots of short hills. Excited for my next adventure!!

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From SlowJoe on Wed, Jan 21, 2015 at 15:28:48 from 12.182.148.249

When training for an ultra, do you like to keep workouts to MP or slower, or do you venture into 5k-10k-LT territory? Seems like I've seen you do some faster stuff but mostly in the aerobic neighborhood like this.

From seeaprilrun on Wed, Jan 21, 2015 at 18:11:00 from 205.172.12.210

Joe--I still venture into speedwork, although it's not a priority. It depends on what I'm training for though--in the case of Cowtown, which is going to be 100% runnable(not technical trail), I the 5k-10-LT is more beneficial than it would be for a longer more technical race. For a longer, more technical race I prioritize long hills(ascents and descents) and trail specifity if I can. I think even in hardcore ultra training keeping touch with speed is beneficial, though.

Total Distance
8.00

2 warmup, 5 tempo, 1 down

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
7.00

Slow on the home mill with 12 x 2 minute hills

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
14.30

7:54 ap. Outside. Strange ball of fire was in the sky and made it so so bright.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Burt on Mon, Jan 26, 2015 at 18:05:25 from 174.17.89.12

Was it the sun?

Total Distance
5.10

Am: ems crossfit at work. Decline pushups off the back bumper kill me

Afternoon: had a little time for a zombie run under that great ball of fire before the squeeze of stuff to do and off to survive another night

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
0.00

No running.  I know, lame, but we did do 50 minutes of hardcore EMS crossfit and at 4am at work and it was a killer workout.

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
4.00

definitely an "off" week.  dragged myself to the East Y to make myself do something.  200 floors NES then 4 measly miles

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
13.35

7:56 ap. 90 minutes up and down soapbox hill with Kyle then 15 minute cooldown. Great hill workout. Got sleeted on a lot, good ol face stingers.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Burt on Sat, Jan 31, 2015 at 11:54:38 from 184.101.110.192

That's actually good for your skin. It opens your pores.

From SlowJoe on Sat, Jan 31, 2015 at 17:57:34 from 104.51.208.13

The stinging sensation means it's working.

Total Distance
6.00

Am,,,50 minutes ems crossfit. Great workout

Afternoon...6 ez home treddy

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
8.00

Morning...ems crossfit, tough 50 minutes

Afternoon....8 ez on the Y treddy

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Matt Schreiber on Tue, Feb 03, 2015 at 21:14:01 from 66.17.102.175

That crossfit stuff seems like a good idea. Keep it up!

Total Distance
0.00

50 minutes ems crossfit. Worked up a great sweat. I'm officially in that stage where I am not "training". Hiatus. Run when I want, but no pressure. I'm sure it will pass, but for now, I'm okay with it. This solo-parenting work at night no-life sleep-deprived existence sometimes calls for a break. I'm on break.

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
7.00

Home treddy with Vanessa settled watching television. She started puking lady night at my Mom's while I was at work, plus a fever and cough. I swooped her up and brought her home when I got off. sleep today has been sketchy. Totally reinforces my give-up-on-running-competitively mode. I will never be able to train the way I want,nights is killing me, survival and the "best I can" is all I've got. I'm too tired these days to be my best and I'm okay with that.

Weight: 0.00
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From Burt on Sat, Feb 07, 2015 at 09:08:42 from 184.101.110.192

:(

and

:)

Total Distance
8.00

Home treddy. Home with sick kid. Didn't feel like leaving the house anyway. Did 12 x2 minute hills, mostly to work up a sweat and prevent fatness....

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Matt Schreiber on Sun, Feb 08, 2015 at 19:02:21 from 66.17.102.175

Gotta hand it to ya for getting 8 in. Hope your little one comes around quick!

Total Distance
18.00

7:58. That afternoon sunshine was just what I needed.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Tom K on Mon, Feb 09, 2015 at 15:15:30 from 73.27.178.76

Awesome! I need to learn how to harness the power of the sun like that.

Total Distance
6.00

Ez on the hometread watching Parenthood on netflix

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From steve ash on Tue, Feb 10, 2015 at 15:44:33 from 174.27.252.143

Have that one, one of our favorites:) Hillarious but real in it's own way..

From seeaprilrun on Tue, Feb 10, 2015 at 17:52:34 from 205.172.12.210

I really enjoy watching it! Just got to season 2. It's my new late night tv thing.

Total Distance
12.00

Circles around post 2 at 3am.  got in about 30 minutes of ems crossfit afterward.  Hoping to hit another run this afternoon.

Pm...6 more at the Y. 5 on the mill with a little speedwork then 1 on the track with 10 strides. Feeling better for sure! Reading a great Christian book about women, fear, and doubt in faith. It's been very good for me.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From Burt on Wed, Feb 11, 2015 at 07:12:40 from 184.101.110.192

That's pretty early.

From Matt Schreiber on Wed, Feb 11, 2015 at 18:37:25 from 66.17.102.175

Nice miles today!

Total Distance
12.00

Ez on the treadmill. I'm that big of a wimp about cold these days

Weight: 0.00
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From JulieC on Thu, Feb 12, 2015 at 14:40:41 from 63.224.113.44

Utah is ridiculously warm. No snow (except in mountains) and I haven't run outside much because I am waiting for my new "free" shoes. My kinvaras were defective but I wore them for 500 miles but they said they knew they were defective and were replacing those bought last summer to those who complained. Anyway...I returned them so I don't have a pair to run in except my saucony 5s that are zero drop and light as a feather. And I am not light as a feather so ouch if I run outside in them.

Total Distance
5.00

2.5 mile warmup, then 3 x 5 sets up the cessna stadium bleachers with a few half-mile jogs in between.  Had good company and conversation, just nice to hang out in the sun.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From SlowJoe on Sat, Feb 14, 2015 at 03:47:58 from 107.72.164.16

Getting those trail legs in gear, nice!

From Matt Schreiber on Sat, Feb 14, 2015 at 13:53:32 from 66.17.123.25

Bleachers! I like it.

Total Distance
8.00

7 in circles around post at 3am.

Did an hour of strength and core in the afternoon and warmed up witj

with a mile.

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
6.00

Ez on home treddy. Still sore from Saturday's workout.

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
6.00

The work block from hell continues.  had a little time, hit the East Y, 1 mile warmup, 4 mile tempo 6:40, 6:35, 6:31, 6:27, 1 mile cooldown.  piddled with a little upper body weights.  I am out of shape but feeling motivated to change that before Flatrock 101 in a few months.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From steve ash on Wed, Feb 18, 2015 at 20:36:25 from 174.27.245.14

Don't let it go. Keep it going on April.

Total Distance
7.00

3Am circles around post. Also squeezed in 40 minutes of ems crossfit. One more day of 4 hours sleep today and one more night shift and the 7 days of hrll are over!!

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
7.00

330am--7 miles of circles at post.  this has been a sad week for mileage, but truly the best I could do with my schedule and my daughter.  Hoping to actually get in a second run after work.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From SlowJoe on Fri, Feb 20, 2015 at 17:23:25 from 104.51.208.13

Nice work this week. Danielle went out of town for just a day this week and I didn't even try to run. You seem to always find a way!

Total Distance
10.00

Hometread fartlek. Tired. Sooo restless last night. No sleep, but 8 hours of hodgepodge including seeking proof of God and getting pretty into intelligent design, read a lot of Bible, looked up a lot of historical origins of Biblical text, got sidebarred off into "love " and it's relevance to all relationships including spiritual, but then moved along to poverty, watched a few documentaries that highlighted corruption, and pondered my own role in the less fortunate locally and globally. My head just won't turn off.

Weight: 0.00
Comments
From SlowJoe on Mon, Feb 23, 2015 at 19:26:47 from 104.51.208.13

Hah - I've had God-research days too. If you ever find bulletproof results, let me know!

From steve ash on Mon, Feb 23, 2015 at 19:42:13 from 65.130.187.195

Pray for answers April. It definitely helps I have to say. Mine are with you tonight.

From seeaprilrun on Tue, Feb 24, 2015 at 07:16:31 from 98.164.9.119

Intelligent design is pretty convincing. Still searching, still praying, feeling optimistic like I'm getting closer to what I'm searching for.

From SlowJoe on Tue, Feb 24, 2015 at 07:39:09 from 12.182.148.249

I'm still kind an evolution guy, but it sounds like you're going down many of the same paths I have. I know enough to know that I don't know enough! There are still plenty of things that evolution has not explained. I should read up more on ID though.

For me it comes down to biogenesis vs abiogenesis. I'm of the opinion life cannot, and has not ever sprung spontaneously from non-living material. No one has come remotely close to showing that possibility. So how did life begin without some kind of supernatural intervention?Slightly different question, but with the same implications...

Anyway, so many people these days are 100% sure they have all the answers (both atheists and people of faith) so i like seeing others having the same thoughts/questions as me!

From Burt on Tue, Feb 24, 2015 at 08:10:00 from 71.223.34.108

Just a thought from someone who doesn't know a whole lot. Read the Book of Mormon.

From allie on Sat, Feb 28, 2015 at 19:10:01 from 73.207.133.226

i fall on the same subject when i can't sleep, which is often.

i've studied like mad, and i have no sure conclusions (although i swing to the atheistic side of things).

knowing the purpose of our life and how/why we are here is the ultimate human question. i'm with joe -- all i know is that i know don't enough to answer that question.

despite hearing very confident answers from many people in my life, i am of the opinion that no one *really* has the answer...at least yet...

for now i see it like this: the world is constantly improving (at least in some ways) -- we are learning new things, making new discoveries, constantly developing new technology, etc...if we ever reach a point where we are so advanced that we can answer the unanswerable questions and actually figure out everything there is to know, will that be like a big GAME OVER for the world? we've won the game, there's nothing more to conquer, so that's the end.

“there is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable.

there is another theory which states that this has already happened.” - douglas admas

From SlowJoe on Sun, Mar 01, 2015 at 05:37:08 from 107.77.72.85

Well said, Allie. I'm glad I'll be long dead when/if we ever get to that point.

I like that quote!

Total Distance
6.00

Hometread fartlek. Work was ridiculously busy, I think I am drunk off the fumes of my patients. Talked myself into this.

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
22.00

No watch. No sleep but not missing Kyle's 32 miles for 32 years. Went to the Kingman hills and ran the first 16 with Kyle, Nancy, and Fernando. Nancy went home after that and I went 6 more before the exhaustion took over. Fernando bailed at 24 and then we grabbes some of the beer and kept checking on Kyle until he was done. Great time out in the sticks with friends and big run for Kyle. His first 100k is in two months.

Weight: 0.00
Total Distance
12.00

Treadmill East Y, threw in a two mile tempo and 5x1200 but nothing fast just 6:35-6:40 pace. Good way to press buttons and get some threshold type running.

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Total Distance
6.20

snow bunny hopping.  good work on the legs--fun!

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From steve ash on Sat, Feb 28, 2015 at 17:57:47 from 174.27.245.106

What exactly is snow bunny hopping? Forgive me, I'm a little dense at times:)

Total Distance
8.00

Home treddy squeeze between shifts.  Tried to do a little speedwork.  20 minute warm up, 5 x 60 seconds on/60 off 6:00 pace, 5 minute jog, 5 x 45 seconds on/75 seconds off 5:27 pace, 5 minute jog, 7 minutes 6:27 pace.  was supposed to be 10 but felt pukey.  cooled down to 8 miles.  I wonder about my home treadmill calibration.  All paces feel significantly harder than they do on the treadmills at the Y.  5:27 pace is risking my life on that belt.

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From SlowJoe on Mon, Mar 02, 2015 at 18:04:18 from 104.51.208.13

if you get really, really, really bored you can test it yourself, as I did with our treadmill a few years ago.

http://www.topendsports.com/fitness/treadmill-calibration.htm

I was disappointed that ours was spot-on, but your mileage may vary!

Total Distance
20.00

7:45 pace with Fernando. I have such a long ways to go. Way out of shape.

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0.00

40 minutes double steps up and down the stairs at the dty with an old friend.  good talk.

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From Burt on Wed, Mar 04, 2015 at 22:07:22 from 174.17.93.117

Double trouble!

Total Distance
7.00

Speedwork on the hometread.

15 minute warm up10 x 1 minute on/off at 5:56 to 5:27 pace

5 minute jog

10 minutes 6:27 pace

quick cooldown to 7

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Total Distance
16.00

Easy 3am circles around post 6, followed by an hour of emscrossfit(slow night at work). We reached a whole new level today with

pushing our cars back and forth across the parking lot. Hard work!! Should get another run in this afternoon.

Afternoon--9 more ez in the sun, in 55 degrees, in a tank top, by Nessa's school. Glorious !

I made an appearance in the March issye of Ultrarunning magazine with an article about me at Heartland. I told my daughter I was famous and she was thrilled. ;)

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From Tom K on Fri, Mar 06, 2015 at 06:40:14 from 73.27.178.76

Pushing cars - This interests me.

Where does pushing a car leave you the most sore?

Total Distance
12.00

Ez on the hometread at 4am while Nessa slept. Getting it in before our mother/daughter trip to KC!!

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Total Distance
10.00

Got back from KC and rushed to the Y with Mini. 8 on the mill with a few fast hills to pree buttons but mostly easy. Two more ez on the track. Good enough for today!!

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Total Distance
13.15

Called in sick to work tonight but I'm not sick. Nessa is at her usual place spending the night while I work. I'm not at work though. This is the only way for me to have a break. Free time. So I deceived everybody and now I'm holed up in a restaurant in a back booth by myself. Let's call it a mental health day. I might even go to an adult movie. I might not.

Today I ran on my home treddy out of view and spent some time grieving. It's a long story but in the end I still just cannot move past a few things. I've tried, prayed, ran, drank, smoked, screamed, cried, wrote, played, devoured books and journals, talked to friends, begged for mercy from any higher being, taken anti-depressants, gone to church. It always circles back.

I'm staring into the abyss again. I am grateful for my little blonde angel or I would have given up long ago. She is the reason I get out of bed every day and choose to live the best I can.

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From SlowJoe on Mon, Mar 16, 2015 at 15:59:08 from 12.182.148.249

I was enjoying this entry until the 2nd paragraph...

I'm sorry about the rough times, keep plugging away. Let us know if you need anything, including just an ear. Or, hey, call in sick for a week and come hang out with us in SA!

From allie on Mon, Mar 16, 2015 at 16:29:56 from 73.207.133.226

"There is no hopeless cause, no insurmountable obstacle." -april

sending you love, good vibes, and hope for brighter days ahead. ♥

From Burt on Mon, Mar 16, 2015 at 16:53:59 from 71.223.40.58

Remember we all love you.

From 100 Ultras By Age 100 on Mon, Mar 16, 2015 at 17:34:24 from 99.175.80.179

Hang in there, sweetie. We all have been there. If it weren't for plunging into an abyss, I never would have found this blog. Writing can provide healing sometimes. Try not to hole up and do destructive things.

From JulieC on Mon, Mar 16, 2015 at 22:58:11 from 63.224.113.199

Glad u took time for you. In Matthew I found this quite helpful. " Come unto me my all ye that labour and our heavy laden and I will give you rest to your souls." Rest meaning comfort. Your little angel is a tender mercy. Mini April and April are a powerful duo. Love you friend!!

Total Distance
8.00

Am. Ems crossfit.

Pm. 8 at east y treddy with 8 x 90 seconds on/off at 5:56 to 5:42 pace

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Total Distance
26.00

Ez. No watch. Glorious weather.

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Total Distance
6.00

Ez on hometread. Legs feel fine

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Total Distance
20.00

330 am, 5 miles in loops around post 6 slow

Afternoon, paced Kyle the last 15 of his 50 on the trail at Miller's Meadow.

A day of easygoing miles

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Total Distance
10.70

ez breezy, no watch, in the sunshine

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Total Distance
6.00

Guestimate on miles. Circles and lines chasing and running around Vanessa at the playground....a fartlek of sorts

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Total Distance
7.00

Spring break and work are really making this running and sleeping thing hard.  Got a lil speedwork on the hometread today.

15 minute warm up

4 x 90 secs on/off 6:00 pace

3 minute jog

4 x 45 seconds on/off 5:27 pace

3 minute jog

8 minutes 6:27 pace

cooldown to 7

good enough for tired and time crunched

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From SlowJoe on Thu, Mar 19, 2015 at 19:17:44 from 104.51.208.13

Yeah if you can't run long, then something short and speedy will help a lot - nice work.

Total Distance
10.00

ez in circles around post 6

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Total Distance
10.00

Hometread.  Just a few more days to spring break and I can get a long one outside.  did a button-pusher with a little turnover.  20 minute warm up, 4 x (5 x 1min on/off at 6:00 pace) with 5 minute jogs in between.  Cooldown to 10.

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Total Distance
12.00

I ran 12. So what. The story of the day...WUUUUUUUUU SHOCK. NO WONDER KU HAS BEEN AVOIDING US!!!!!

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From Russ on Wed, Mar 25, 2015 at 22:36:17 from 24.72.194.88

That was a fantastic game. Congrats! Hoping they can knock off ND.

Total Distance
9.30

15K in the sun. Last half mile fast. Felt surprisingly good.

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Total Distance
7.00

Circles at work.

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Total Distance
25.00

Great run in perfect weather! Game day!!

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From SlowJoe on Sat, Mar 28, 2015 at 14:37:49 from 104.51.208.13

25! nice!

Total Distance
6.40

Ez by the river in the wind

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Total Distance
16.20

Absurd amounts of circles around post 6 at 3am. Work slowed way down at midnight, and we managed to hoist a few out of the grave, so a good night.

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From Burt on Mon, Mar 30, 2015 at 08:33:59 from 184.101.203.22

Hoist a few out of the grave? Nice job.

From seeaprilrun on Mon, Mar 30, 2015 at 08:44:38 from 98.164.9.119

More like snatched from the jaws of death, but I don't wannabrag. ;)

From Burt on Mon, Mar 30, 2015 at 08:48:17 from 184.101.203.22

you go, girl!

Total Distance
3.50

squeezed it in at work.  got in about 7 x 200s and also did a pretty solid car pushing workout

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From SlowJoe on Mon, Apr 06, 2015 at 18:41:57 from 104.51.208.13

I'll call you next time my car breaks down.

Total Distance
6.00

Finally broke the hiatus today. My mind demanded it. I went to the Y, lifted weights an hour, then ran 6 at 6:40 pace on the treadmill. Surprisingly, it did not feel hard. Maybe I needed this break. Looking forward to running with a good friend tomorrow and Flatrock 101 is looming intwo weeks.

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Total Distance
7.00

Easy with Prefontaine

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Total Distance
6.30

Enjoyable run with a few 3/4 mile pickups.  Felt good in the sun.

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From Matt Schreiber on Sat, Apr 11, 2015 at 19:57:37 from 66.17.102.175

Kind of nice to see that sun thing again. It finally showed it's face here today, too.

Total Distance
9.50

Squeezed 1.5 in at work then we got a call

Afternoon: 6 miles at 6:40 pace, 1 mile easy, 1 mile on the track with strides

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From Burt on Mon, Apr 13, 2015 at 19:33:14 from 184.101.203.22

What better way to get you ready for a call?

Total Distance
14.00

12 easy. 2 miles brisk walk up 10% grade. A few pushups and abs.

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From Burt on Tue, Apr 14, 2015 at 17:42:58 from 184.101.203.22

Great job!

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7.00

1 mile up 12% grade on the treddy. 6 miles slow by Nessa's school

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From SlowJoe on Thu, Apr 16, 2015 at 18:52:27 from 104.51.208.13

12%! 1 week to Flatrock, I'm guessing...Seems like you're fresh & ready.

Total Distance
6.00

Treddy fartlek with two minute intervals of hills and speed. Pretty random.

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Total Distance
6.00

Treddy fartlek

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Total Distance
6.00

Another fartlek and some weights

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From Kam on Fri, Apr 24, 2015 at 09:24:03 from 68.66.163.179

You know you are an ultra runner when you call a six mile run a fartlek.

From SlowJoe on Mon, Apr 27, 2015 at 17:31:41 from 104.51.208.13

Flatrock...did that happen?

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0.00

20 weeks preggy today. It's a girl. :)

Haven't ran much due to lots of contractions and not gaining weight, but I'm up 3 pounds and baby measures perfect. Going to try some slow easy miles this week.

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From SlowJoe on Thu, Aug 06, 2015 at 20:15:36 from 45.18.50.53

Vanessa has got to be excited!

plod on momma!

From Russ on Tue, Aug 11, 2015 at 15:34:42 from 74.114.3.253

Congrats!

From JulieC on Mon, Aug 24, 2015 at 00:32:33 from 63.224.115.151

miss ya friend!! hang in there!! :D

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0.00

Getting antsy now watching all the fall races!  4 more weeks to baby and then heal a bit and start running again!  been grounded from running for a while due to an umbilical cord problem, but baby is still healthy and thriving and growing well and doc thinks everything is going to be fine!  Lots of prayers answered in that situation and I am so grateful!

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From SlowJoe on Sun, Nov 22, 2015 at 09:25:01 from 45.18.50.53

My b-day is December 18, and I turned out pretty...on second thought, shoot for a different day.

Good to hear all is well!

From SlowJoe on Sun, Dec 20, 2015 at 08:51:11 from 107.77.105.62

I'm way late on this but congrats on Valerie! She's a little cutie.

Total Distance
670.90
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