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American Fork,UT,

Member Since:

Nov 27, 2009



Goal Type:

Boston Qualifier

Running Accomplishments:

St George Marathon

2011 - 4:11:52 

2017. -4:01:17

2021 - 4:03:05

Salt Lake City Full Marathon

2013 -  4:23:03 

Ogden Marathon

2012 - 3:58:35

2013 - 4:17:20

2014 - 4:02:51

2017 - 3:55:22**

2023 - 3:57:09

Utah Valley Marathon

2019 - 4:05:37 

Top of Utah Marathon

2014 - 4:09:27

Mt Charleston Marathon

2019 - 4:05:33

West Mountain Marathon

2015 - 4:42:34


St George Half Marathon

2012 - 1:55:00

2013 - 2:03:00

2014 - 1:46:00

2015 - 1:48:00

2022-  1:42:45**

Salt Lake City Half Marathon

2012 - 1:51:00

2014 - 1:44:01

Hobble Creek Half Marathon

2001 - 1:40:00**

2011 - 1:45:00

2012 - 1:43:00

2013 - 1:43:00 

2022 - 1:48:53

Ogden Half Marathn

2024 - 1:48:58 - 3rd place in AG

American Fork Half Marathon

2013 - 1:48:24

2014- 1:53:23 (pacing Tim)

2017  - 1:47:54

2018 - 1:48:12

2019 - 1:47:50

Timp Half Marathon

2012 - 1:47:18 

2022 - 1:49:40 (AF Cancer course)

Utah Valley Half Marathon 

2011 - 1:55:00 

Top of Utah Half Marathon

2010 - 1:48:20 

The Haunted Half Provo

2018 - 1:51:28


Goblin Valley 50K

2014 - 5:58

Red Mountain 55K

2018 - 7:31:37

Antelope Island Fall Classic 50K

2017 - 6:14:23

Antelope Island 50 Mile

2015 - 10:10:00

Antelope Island 100 Mile

2018 - 26:53



**Personal Best 



Short-Term Running Goals:



Long-Term Running Goals:

To qualify for Boston


Married for 23 years. I have 18 year old triplets and a 15 year old. I love to sew, garden, and run!

Favorite Running Quotes: 


"Sooner or later the serious runner goes through a special, very personal experience that is unknown to most people.

Some call it euphoria. Others say it's a new kind of mystical experience that propels you into a elevated state of consciousness, a flash of joy.

A sense of floating as you run. This experience is unique to each of us, but when it happens, you break through a barrier that separates you from casual runners. Forever. And from that point on, there is no finish line. You run for your life. You begin to be addicted to what running gives you."  

~Nike Poster

2.           A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.


You’ve no doubt heard this.  And you’ve probably recited it in your mind on a run or at the gym when you’re just beginning to get in shape.  You have a goal in sight and this quote brings you back to the current moment.


But the problem is that many runners forget all of the steps between the first one and the goal.  If your goal is to run under two hours for the half marathon then you need to be honest about all of the little steps to get to that goal.


…and what I’d rather see you do is to get the goal out of mind completely, but rather focus on the process, not the outcome. -Jay Johnson Process orientation, not outcome orientation.


You should have goals, but you should take it one step at a time.  And you should be honest about the fact that you don’t know how many steps it will take to get there. ~ Vernon Gambetta


3.  Human beings are made up of flesh, blood and a miracle fiber called COURAGE! ~ George Patton 


4.   Find the courage to be patient.

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I love my extended family, but I don't always like them. They bring way too much drama and I was the lucky one who got to have Mother's Day dinner at my house.

I went to bed a 9:45pm and got up a 7:45am. I was mentally drained yesterday.

Next holiday, I'm going into hiding

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4 easy miles on the home treadmill. I was huffing and puffing which makes me a bit nervous for Saturday. I just hope all the stars align.

5x1:00 pick ups

Stretch and foam roll

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3 easy miles on the home treadmill. Static calf stretching, myrtle routine, leg swings, dynamic calf stretch and planks.

Foam rolling

2014 - Minutes Miles: 30.00
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Rest day and lots of stretching

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Easy miles outside. My breathing this last week has felt really labored. Like I haven't been running at all. I hope I haven't tapered too much.


The hay is in the barn. I've been training for this marathon for 364 days. The bags are packed and it is time to roll.

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Race: Ogden Marathon (26.2 Miles) 04:02:51, Place overall: 853, Place in age division: 97
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The Dream that Wasn’t – Ogden Marathon 2014 Recap
“I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed.” ~ Michael Jordan
Once again, I am reminded that 26.2 miles deserves the utmost respect.  It is a long time to be on the road and anything can happen. 
I’ve never had such pre-race anxiety before.  I usually never set a specific marathon time goal or set such high expectations before.  I’ve never been so publicly open about my goals.  Though I am full of craziness, I knew I had done my work and felt like my training was going to manifest itself with a BQ.
I headed up to Ogden on Friday afternoon to the expo.  It is hard to explain the excitement of runners and spectators at an expo/starting line/finish line, but it is magical.  The energy can actually be felt and I started to get really excited.  I grabbed my packet and then headed up Ogden Canyon to drive the last half of the course.  Though I have already run the course twice, I wanted to refresh my memory.
After my drive up and down memory lane, I check into my hotel, and then headed off to meet Rachel and friends for dinner.  Rachel is a super star runner who has helped a lot of people met their running goals by being a race pacer. Though she wasn’t an “official” pacer for this race, she offered to pace me to a 3:40 marathon.  I was beyond grateful!  We had a yummy dinner at our favorite pizza place and headed off to our different destinations for the night.
Unfortunately, I did not sleep at all Friday night and hopped right out of bed at 3:50am.  We met friends at the busses and took the long bus ride to the starting line.  Though it was cold at the start staging area, it wasn’t cold enough.  This meant for a hot morning.  After waiting for an hour and a half, we finally shed our warm-ups and headed to the start. 
I’ve never been this close to the starting line and felt a bit out of place.  The national anthem was sung and the gun went off. 
Though I had time splits written on my arm, I didn’t look at my watch.  I let Rachel keep track of all that.  My legs were not feeling super fresh even though I took a three-week taper.  Four weeks before the race, I ran 53 miles, which was the most amount of miles I’ve ever run.  I felt full of niggles and knew I needed that recovery period.
Around mile 8, it felt like someone took a gas pump full of lead and started pumping it into my legs.  My breathing started to get labored and all the wheels started to fall off.  I kept thinking to myself, “I run more than 8 miles everyday, what is going on? I still have 18 more miles to go.”
Rachel kept looking back and telling me everything was all right.  We eventually made it to the halfway mark and I knew I was in trouble.  I kept saying to myself I could turn things around and I could BQ.  But more and more lead was being pumped into my legs and my heart rate kept getting faster.  I was on top of my nutrition and water and was taking salt pills because of the heat, so why couldn’t my legs cooperate?
We finally made it to mile 17/18 where the elevation drops significantly down the canyon.  Usually, this is where I can pick up speed and really start to feel good. Not today. My buddy Bradley came up behind us.  He knew my goals and knew I should be way further along.  I gave a weak smile and said, “I don’t want to talk about it”.  No judgment was made and he ran with Rachel and I for several miles. 
I finally got to the point of just looking at the yellow line on the road.  Left foot….right foot….left foot….right foot.  I zoned out. My legs were so heavy that I felt like the bad guy in the cartoon “The Incredibles” with his giant robot legs. 
I saw the 3:45 pacer go by and took a major mental blow.  I kept thinking of all the encouragement and kinds words people have said to me the past few days. “Come on Toby…NOW...NOW is the time to go”  “Come on Toby…you’ve been working on this for 365 days…are you really going to let it slip away?”  I would push that gas pedal to the floor but remained at a stand still.  A few miles later, the 4:00 hour pacer passed me and I mentally lost it. I had only come up with one plan for this race – to run a 3:40 or less.  There was no plan B.  Or C. Or D. Now my only goal was to finish.
Rachel kept saying and doing all the right things but I just could not respond. We finally got out of the canyon and I knew Tim and the kids were going to be around mile 23.  Rachel said to look strong to make my family proud.  But as soon as I got through the tunnel and saw them, I lost it.  I stopped to give each one of them a hug and sobbed.  Tears streaming down my face.  I felt as though I disappointed them while I shuffled by.  By this point in the race, all of the facades and walls that I had up were replaced with very raw emotion.
Rachel jokingly said I needed to stop crying because it took much energy. Shortly thereafter, I saw my dear training partner Kellie.  Ohhhh….what a ray of sunshine on a very dark day!
We finally hit mile 25 and turned onto the final stretch of the race.  That last mile took so long to run.  I could see the finish line and it never got any closer.  I was so afraid my legs were going collapse.  Finally….finally, I stepped over the timing mats.  I was so disappointed.  I felt like I had failed.  I felt like had let so many people down.  I was in a world of hurt physically and mentally. 
My sweet family was standing right off the finishing area and it was nice to have a change of scenery.  We planned a place to meet once I got out of the shoot.  I asked Rachel what I did wrong?  She said “Nothing.  I can do all the right training and preparing and some days it doesn’t work out.”  I am so grateful she is my friend and saw me through a very difficult day.

I grabbed some treats in the finish area and met Tim and kids.  I started to cry once again…so very disappointed I didn’t hit my goal after so much work.  I felt silly for sharing my hopes and dreams for the whole world to see and know I would have to face everyone with empty hands.    



I recently read “The Mental Aspects of Running” by Sasha Pachev.  I loved this paragraph.
“Jenny Spangler runs a 2:43 to qualify for the '96 Trials and she is in tears afterwards, and those are not tears of joy, she is disappointed because deep down she knows she is not a 2:43 girl. She enters the Trials with a B qualifier, nobody considers her a factor. She runs away from the field early on, they ignore her thinking she is a rabbit seeking some TV time, cannot keep the pace, and will come back. She does not come back winning with a 2:29. Had she not known deep down she was a 2:29 girl she would not have been in tears over 2:43. Had she not been in tears over 2:43 she would not have run 2:29.”
So now that it is over and I can look back…I need to run more miles in the heat. More strength training.  More experience.  More mental toughness.  I had more demons today than dreams.  I totally fell short of my goal and there is no one or thing to blame but myself.  But I still have a BQ in me somewhere.  Maybe not today or tomorrow or marathon #6 or #7….but someday.
Time to recover, move on and come up with a new plan.  Failures lead to successes.
Chasing dreams and conquering demons 2015
(Thank you dear family, friends, and strangers for ALL your kind words.  My phone, email, Facebook, and Instagram blew up this weekend with kindness.  I thought about each of you while I was shuffling down the streets of Ogden. Thank you…thank you!)

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