Today's workout was tough. 9x400s followed by an 80% for 3 miles. The 400s had 90 seconds rest and 2:00 between the last one and the 80.
400s: 78, 80, 79, 80, 81, 86, 86, 86, 89 (82.8 average).
Coach pulled me aside and wanted me to try to stick with the group once I had fallen off, as it's the only way I'll get over that threshold. I really tried, but it was like I hit a wall after the 5th repeat. I'm sad because I feel like I let coach down by not sticking with the group, but I was really trying. But I'm glad that he talked to me because it did help me to focus, and I think that next time I'll be able to hang on longer.
The 80% was a struggle. I was already super tired from the 400s and, I know it's bad and I really just need to get over it, but I wanted to drop again. I know I shouldn't want to, but I hurt so bad. And I know practice is always going to hurt so really I shouldn't complain because what do you expect? But understanding that and pushing through the pain are two totally different things. But I'm getting better at it, slowly but surely. And even though I told myself I wasn't just going to float through workouts anymore with the mentality that I need to just finish, today was honestly such a hard workout that after the first mile of the 80 that's all I could think. Because if I thought about trying to hit a specific pace I knew I wouldn't be able to hit I would mentally lose it. So I have a long ways to go to perfect my mental game, but as for today I did what I could. I'm not satisfied with it, but everyone struggled today and no one was on pace for the 80%. That makes it a little better. 21:47 for 3 miles (7:15 average), yikes.
Weights later. Coach I took one look at us and said, "you guys look really fatigued," so instead of making us go up to workout 2 he said we could do workout 1. That was a little tender mercy.
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