Believe to Achieve

Vasa    So crowded. But warmed up. 3.  23:44.  Mile one 8:34.    Mile 2. 8:27.  Mile three 7.2-8.7 mph.  So probs. 7:35 pace. Avg.  then tried speed.  And hips achy    Tried again.   Not into it.    Tried 3 rd time and said no.    So 1/2 mile there. Then half mile jog at 8;57 pace.   Then home.  Then decided to run with puppies.  Ran 2.2 with Raven. She did great and super happy.  Then dishes put away.  Then Ranger.   He did good. But worried several times.  23 min.   With poop stop and pee stops. So 10:27 avg. probs really 9 avg wheh running.  Felt so good.   So much better than vasa.   The rain was so nice ti her and it was cool out.  Perfect temp and wetness.  

put on call.  back to bed.  out the door about 10 am to drive to three falls.  ran 4 out and back.  hip flex or pain then at 3.85 miles I twisted by ankle.  ouch.  waited for the pain sting to calm and finished to 4 mile turn around gingerly at first then normal.  same side as hip flexor issue (left).  12:16/11:00/10:51/10:55/10:27/11:36/11:02/10:12 (9:55)- past where I started by a lot!!half way down parking lot. 11:00 avg if stop at potty, 11:03 per watch.  

somethings up.  so i was totally excited to do speed but just jogging into vasa by hips felt weird especially left one.  ugh.  so warmed up and I was tight in hips.  but ok tried 1 up at 7:41 pace, 3 percent incline.  not to bad but held on at times.  then down 6:48.  mile- 2 percent.   ran then up two same pace.   Was gonna try 7 down but got called into work so only had time for three but when I started again after stopped my leg didn't feel it.  just tight and achy left leg/thigh etc.  work at noon and by end walking really bad.  really bad next day and a little better friday.  no running at all. feels like I am reliving my sad painful days that running feels too much of a chore and not even a consideration in this pain.  but i really wanted to race saturday.  so i try to show up. see entry.  36:38.  

against all that is right in the world i should not have shown up.  but i was still in shock that all my training this summer went to waste with this sudden injury incompatible with jogging nevermind running.  got up at 420 am.  got to bus at 515am.  got to top at 605 am.  cold and super crowded.  ran up a mile very slow and painfully and knew full well this was not a good idea. knee seems out of place causing my thigh to track wrong too.  and pain in thigh and groin kind of too much.  super stressful race start in a lot of pain with a wrap around my thigh holding whatever tendon has snapped into place.  all i could think of is get to next mile, now get to next.  pace was not forced. it was super easy cardio wise.  i am still in shock at the pain.  after the race i went to byu fb game with it wrapped and after that it was in severe pain that i had to take a muscle relaxant. quad burning.  groin burning.  unable to lift leg with out pain or walk or stand or lay down.  I had already iced in af river for 18 minutes after driving right there at noon after race.  I got to mile 11 and tried to adjust my wrap as it was  falling off so I just took it off and it was the worst thing I could do.  stopped me in  my tracks and I had to walk the rest.  could not even break into a jog.  so I stopped a few minutes into mile 12 so that mile was 21:xx and the next even slower 27:55!!!  like sooooo bad pain.   everyone was cheering for me telling me I got this etc.. It  really was nice of everyone.  so many people just running by.  they looked good.  couldnt make sense of my non moving body. turtle speed.  I was brave I know that. the pain and running was soooo stupid yet brave.  the last 0.1 took about 3.5 minutes.  maybe more.  

Paces:  7:34/7:33/7:03/6:48/6:37/6:55/6:40/6:56/6:56/7:34/8:01 (PURPOSELY SLOWED TO TRY AND GET QUAD TO QUIET), 21:16/27:55 AND 4 MIN FOR LAST 0,2.  7:09 AVG FOR FIRST 11 MILES.  i definitely could have run 1:30.  I wasn;t even having an adrenaline run rush. just all pain.  able to talk easily with others albeit not very positive.  last night was soooo painful.  right quad a heck ton sorer than affected leg.  it had to work over time!!  inner thigh groin difficulty lifting leg from straight leg and side to side and going up stairs left foot first.