Believe to Achieve

Vampire books taking all my energy.....no really this time it was that and the TMJ therapist plus massage (awesome).  I am just starting the fourth book and I really am irriated with Jacob (such a hormone) ,and at Bella for being weak.  This is why I run.  Because reading gets me too involved.  I feel like I am part of the story.  My life experiences, besides the vampire/werewolf thing are quite similar and it struck a chord.  I don't like to have those emotions of choices.  Hence  I run.  I run to escape what I may be feeling that day.  Not good for me probably but the only way I escape painful feelings in order to feel better for the moment.  Sometimes that moment lasts longer than others.  After only 2.59 miles (cut short to go to the movies with Troy and the kids) I didn't get to get past it all.  It isn't about the book so much as what it brought out of me.  Hope not too many read this.  I will snap out of it.  Gotta run some more.  No worries.

2.59 miles (avg pace: 8:29)

Wicked migraine last night so was sent home from work at 11pm. I was so grateful since I knew it was from those three nights in a row last week, not getting enough sleep due to some intense reading material and a niece over wearing strong perfume.  Recipe for a disastrous head problem.  I so wanted to pick up the fourth book and start it but my common sense side won over.  Get sleep.  Get things done for that matter.  Then read.  I am so glad my obsession is not reading.  I wouldn't get anything done because I would be totally confused at who I was.  I am very analytical.  Not good to add reading to as Marion put it another obsession.  I will stick with running.  No major harm there.  I know there has got to be running in heaven.  Right Marion?  Anyway, ran 5.71 miles with husband (8:39 pace).  Rough for my dear husband who is a fair weather runner.  He is getting there.  "Come on" I say  "doesn't it make you feel better".  He says "when I get to the end I always feel better it is over".  Ha Ha.  In the long run (no pun intended) he'll be thankful for my "good intentions".  Went and ran another 2 miles at 7:58 then 7:55.  Felt easy.  Glad cause I am stepping it up this year.  The clock is ticking.....I will be turning 40 on Saturday.  This Saturday, February 7th.  Since I will be working the night before and the night of I will have to make sure not to sleep all the way thru the change in decades. 

Ran just to get my head back together.  Didn't run long enough though.  Hope to recover soon.  

4.17 miles (8:47 pace)

Didn't like book four after midway thru (liked the island getaway though).  Gets too supernatural. But really liked the first three books.  Actually its just that immortality is hard to vision.  But the way she describes it as a vampire well....I think I would get bored if I didn't download by sleeping.  But perhaps a major dose of adrenaline everyday would keep me awake with no need for sleep (like running superfast like the vampires do).  I was actually siding with Jacob for a bit and then he weirded out by imprinting...  not going to give out too much info there.  Hope no one wanted to start the books too soon for the first time.  Don't want to give away the story or anything.   Got out and ran 12.15 miles to get my brain in the game again.  Ran slow at first, but it was an uphill first half so got a really good long run in. 

Avg pace: 8:28 (12.15 miles).

Ran with hubby.  He is getting stronger.  Last mile he picked it up so I did and then well then he was wondering why it felt hard.....it was a 7:23 last mile (half 1/2 mile up hill).  Guys and competition.  I felt fine, at least my heart.  Breathing no problem, just achy all over lately part of the fibromyalgia/chemical allergy ridiculousness.  It is burning pain all over.  It is hard to describe but for some reason a good massage helps me focus off the burning pain. 

Avg pace for four miles (8:19).  Running time 32:55.

Run on 40th birthday.  Worked last night, work tonite (Ugh!!!, long birthday).  Pace okay but mind tired.  Went out to Olive Garden for lunch before next shift.  

7.33 miles (8:07pace); 1/2 miles cooldown 8:08 pace.  Last mile 7:18.