AM- Up into the hills for some meditative running this morning and you know I came home with some interesting thoughts about things that have been a struggle for me lately. I went running this morning instead of going to church and I'm ok with that decision allthough others within my family and circle of influence may not be. It's times like this you find out who your friends really are and what kind of character and compassion people have. I just could not bring myself to go to church today and I'm not sure I ever will again. My son was baptized this last week into the LDS church and I am happy for him even though I was not able to perform the ordinance. I'ts the whole Word of Wisdom thing ie Wine, coffee etc. Those of you who are LDS will know what I'm talking about. I'm not even really sure if I should have posted such personal thoughts up here but I needed to get it off my chest today. You know I even discussed this with my bishop at length and I asked him some very pointed questions about it including as to why people who violate this health code by overeating, and generally not leading an overall healthy lifestyle are allowed to perform sacred ordinances and carry a temple recommend. He really did not give me any satisfactory answers unfortunately. I've been invited to attend a Christian assembly that is close to where I live by a friend of mine. I think I may go this time and while this is going to be a very difficult transition I know that I have finally made my peace with God concerning these things. 12 miles total at 8-7/min/mile. Dimple Dell loop. Happy 4th of July everyone!
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