P.V.H.S.X.C.S.T.S.

from now on I am including warm up in my mileage. oh my. It was a seriously rough day! so hot. so slow. kept getting side aches and my leg was really hurting me. my leg feels like the joints are out of wack and messed up some how. I don't know. . . I've had better days. I'm really going to miss running with the team, even if I don't really run with people I still love the social part of it. Ahh! It'll be so sad. :(

ugh time trial really was a huge disappointment. I was so hoping to get under 25, and I thought it would be easy, but nope! instead I get 26 something. not what I was hoping this season would look like. I am certain one of the main reasons I did so terribly was I was dehydrated. I have a new goal for tomorrow! drink a bottle of water per class period and during lunch! I bet that will make a huge difference. BUT on the positive side of the time trial, I know I did poorly for me, the whole time I knew it wasn't going very well. I felt like I was running about as fast as I could walk. What's positive about that, you may ask, well, if I know I did awful it means I can expect more than this from myself. I know I can do better. but on the down side my hip/ leg joint is super not cool. it hurts bunches and feels like it's out of place or something.

Physically spent. that's how I felt today. Absolutely and completely exhausted. As I was running I figured I never ran more than .5 a mile at a time because I'd stop at stop lights, the club house, the turn around point, and then all the same places on the way back. It's so frustrating, I don't feel like I've improved at all since last year! Coach said that it's impossible for someone to work so hard and not improve. I feel like I've worked pretty hard, and I'm still waiting for the improvement. I drank a bunch today during school, but I still felt like I needed many a drink, so I'll keep trying that.

okay. I'm doing alright. Today Coach Roberts told me to try and stop thinking about trying to improve an just think about having fun. I tried my best to not think about it, but I couldn't help myself for the most part, when I run, to entertain myself I think about how I'm doing and if it'll get me to my goal. but I think he's right. right now I'm not really enjoying running at all, but I think if I stop thinking about it for a bit and just try to have fun, I'll enjoy this season a lot more. Today itself went pretty well, not superb, but not terrible.

Best run in a long long time. I felt like I was moving really quickly, I didn't feel dehydrated (just a little dry mouth), I was able to run with sophomores Austen and David, and I didn't hit any lights or need to stop for a drink all the way till starbucks! It was kind of a perfect run today, and it felt really good. Unfortunately, today was the last day I'll be able to run with the team for a long time, because of the play. well, I'm glad I had a great last run.

I just wanted to cry when I came around the corner at the end and saw the clock had 35 minutes on it. In fact I did cry. I want to break 30 so so so so so bad, that's what I've been working for all summer, that's what my goal has been since midway of sophomore season, when I feel like stopping or turning around early at practice I would imagine how proud and excited I would feel when I saw my time reading 29:58. and now I'm pretty sure I'm not going to get it. I would have to cut off 5 minutes, I was looking at the list afterwords and saw how many people I would have to beat to have had my time be where I wanted it. I would have had to have beaten about 20 more people. I felt awesome while running, which just means I couldn't have gotten better. Now with the play, I don't have the time to do what it takes to cut off those last 5 minutes.