P.V.H.S.X.C.S.T.S.

First run back since region, boy how I miss it! running was tough, just like I knew it would be, but it wasn't as bad as it could have been. I think I'll be able to get back into the swing of things quickly, though. It was a fun little run with Sasha, she's so fun to be around! it's just sad how few people there were, hopefully more people will be showing up as time goes by.

it's so sad how easy it is to get out of shape! I feel like I''m being a total slacker for not doing what coach tells everyone to do, but I know I got to do what's right for me. I do love running in this weather, it's absolutely perfect running weather. the run itself was pathetically difficult. my sides were burning and my muscles were getting sore, how sad! I've decided I should be okay by next moday or tuesday, so I intend on getting back into the swing of things by then.

hearts and back twice. I considered doing part of the speed workout, but considering the fact that when I got done with the first trip to hearts I was already feeling worn out, I just did an easy three. I tell myself I'm not aloud to feel discouraged yet, I need to give myself at least two weeks to potentially be back near where I was, but sometimes it's hard when the whole team, even breann, is so far ahead of me. But I do love to be there, seriously, what people need to realize that XC is the best thing ever is just not to be able to run or run with the team for a bit.

Oh what a beautiful day! one of these days I'm going to be able to keep up again, but until then, I'll just try to have a positive attitude. I got to run with the new freshman Alyssa, which was nice to get to know her, and then on the way back I ran with breann and sasha, both of whom were slowing down for me. but it was very enjoyable. only downside really of the run today was that I tripped and fell near the end, scraped my hands and knee up decently, but I've learned when you fall you have to get back up asap and not think about the wounds, or else you wont want to keep going.

another three miler. hopefully by the end of this week I'll at least be doing 4 or doing the extra speed things afterwords. I still hurt while running, not a bad hurt, but a pushing yourself hurt. as soon as I don't feel that hurt I'll know I need to start moving up. one of these days I'll be able to progress as quickly as the other people, but until then I'll just keep trying! Lovely weather today, and I'm glad I got to run with Chancie and Austin, they're so fun.

yep, just another 3. nothing too exciting. I feel nervous about the time trial on thursday, because I know it's not an accurate judge of my season and it's just going to make me feel depressed. Mariah's back to running, so at least that was something fun today, plus she's also out of shape so we could run together without me holding her back too much.

I ran by myself today because I needed to finish a test in Pre-Cal. It was kind of lonely, but kind of relaxing. I felt good today! On Friday I'll definitly have to try going four mile. I'm not looking forward to the little time trial tomorrow, because I know I'm just going to be disappointed in myself. oh well, I'll just try to tell myself that once upon a time I was better than I am now, and I'll have something to work back towards.

hooray for timed trials! Sadly I think this may be my best timed trial so far, even though I'm still out of shape. but I am getting better! running is getting easier every day, maybe tomorrow I'll go four or something. I try not to get judge myself against others or get down on myself, but it's so dumb when all but two of the little kids beat me. I knew I was last on the high school team, but I didn't know I was so poor on the whole team in general. but on the upside to that, it means we have an awesome generation coming up. Our team will always be unstoppable!

I was only going to do three, but I was too busy having a nice long chat with Little Taylor Boyer. Running with people makes it so much easier, and a lot more fun.We did my favorite four miler, the church run. The reason it's my favorite is because my first day of summer practice last year, I ran to that church as my first run. Now every time I run there from the high school it just helps remind me how absolutely far I've come. I believe that ANYONE can do cross country, if you just seriously just put your mind to it.

just a guess at the distance.Nice weather today, but lesser nice run.Now's about the time I'd love someone new and out of shape to join the team, just sayin'. I love running with people, but I hate keeping them back. the obvious thing would be for me to speed up and get better, and as much as I would love that, I can only do what I can do. Trying to come up with goals for this track season, but I don't know if anything can be as desirable as breaking that thirty.

mehhh. . .  that's about how I feel right now. usually after a run I feel invigorated and full of energy, but today for some reason I just feel bleh. being the slowest one on the team is still no fun, but I guess I'm used to it. I usually only feel upset about it when everyone does the same distance and I'm the last lonely one running after everyone's been done for ten minutes. But I like our little marching form exercise, even though we look dumb, I bet it'll help a lot. Oh! and today while running Shakes' little sister was out cheering some of us on, and she remembered me from the summer running club! and also on my run I was running outside someone elses house and Shakes' little brother was like "Oh, that was my sister's trainer at the summer running club!". I love kids club. :)

so I didn't do the speed work out because Mariah had an AP Bio lab to go to at four and had to get finished with running quickly, and I offered to go with her. we went three miles because that's about what she had time for. I do like running with people, especially Mariah, she's amazing. I feel like I'm being so lazy, but lately I just don't feel up to working hard at running. I'm working hard at so many other things, and I seem not to have energy to work hard at other things. But I'll keep trying, it's good for me. Like my mother always says,  "I can do hard things!"

Ran with Megan today :). she sure does make me happy. I was trying to keep up with a little group, I did alright on the way there, but I sure held them back on the way back. Megan showed me how to roll out after the run. I know my muscles are tight, but rolling out didn't hurt or help very much, I just probably didn't do it right.

I wanted to go three, little taylor boyer said do four. so I went four miles. after that I didn't want to do any striders, little taylor boyer said to do striders, I said I'd do four, she convinced me to do eight. thanks to little taylor boyer I did what I was supposed to do today. It's a sad day when you need to have sophomores and freshmen to tell you to do all that you're supposed to.

I'm bad I know! I had to be somewhere at four, so just be glad I ran at all! I know, I know, I'm only hurting myself, but I really did my best. I've decided I'm pretty much back into the swing of things, so the only thing I can blame for me not being so good is me being lazy. I'm looking forward to the footlocker trip, not so much for the footlocker race. I just want to not get last place at the race, it'd be so embarrassing.

I don't really know how long michigans are.speaking of michigans, this was my first time ever doing one! I've never heard anything but awful things about them, so I was quite nervous. But it turned out to be slightly enjoyable. I don't know if it's because I don't feel all the pressure in the world to get a certain time or what, but I do push myself. I really probably could have pushed a little more, but because I had no idea how to pace myself for this work out I decided I didn't want to be dead when I got halfway through. I really hope we do those again some time, I do really like them.

Thanksgiving day run was awesome! again, this is just an estimate of how far I ran, considering I'm not familiar with any runs around here in Page. I may end up running again later today, after eating, just to save myself from feeling completely fat. I ran with my sister, Deborah, because she's home from collage. Luckily Deborah isn't very out of shape, therefore I didn't need to go super slow for her, but I think at my leisurely pace, I was pushing her.

Didn't run much over the weekend, but I pushed this three, so I feel justified. I'm a touch worried about the race this weekend, I'm not in it to win it, but I don't just want to throw it away. I hope to get a little better this week before it's time.

I just wish I was where I was near the end of my season! Today all the girls ran together but me and Sasha. I could have totally stuck with them had I never stopped running. I think how much I would have loved to continue running during play, but it was just seriously unrealistic considering how it was already dark after practice and I was getting little sleep as it already was. but still, I can't help but feel a touch down about it, but I'm coming back. It'll take a lot of effort, but it's worth it.