Wasatch and VA loop. I read an article today that I thought was relatable. I realized I haven't been enjoying running. In high school it was often the highlight of my day. Now it's an obligation, and I continue to let myself down. This article said that motivation is what gives you the push you need to work through pain, and is closely tied to enjoyment. If you don't enjoy running, why would you want to make yourself suffer? Honestly, I haven't truly enjoyed running for months. I used to look forward to workouts but I just don't anymore, unless it's a long run at a slower pace. I've felt guilty about this, because I labeled that as lazy. I'm becoming one of the people I despised in high school: those who don't work hard and waste their talents. And I hate it. I want to work hard, improve, and have fun. I'm finding it difficult to do so. The article labeled this as a burnout. Maybe I'm burnt out. Maybe that's my real problem. I kinda thought it was just a lame excuse for not working hard, but maybe it's a real thing. For right now, I guess I'll just look for ways to enjoy running. I won't bother with trying to meet some standard, I just want to be pleased with what I can accomplish. |