Believe to Achieve

Trail run after the climb up 1100 north with Kim at 6am.  Couldn't sleep well.  Still feel very achy in head, neck, spine, fingers, wrists.  Not sore muscles but tired tendons etc... hard to explain.  This has been happening to me on and off for years and I have been diagnosed with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue.  I pinned the cause on chemicals and fragrances.  For example if there is a plug in (candle) at the orthodontist office (like my daughter's dr. yesterday) I can't stay in the room or I would pass out in a few minutes from intense fatigue after an initial headache.  Work is hard because I have to plug up my nose to survive the chemicals used there and coworkers perfumes.  It works but I still get affected some, some times more than others.  I don't have the money to go to the environmental health center in Dallas, I  am close at times to desperation to figure this out.  I am tired of Drs.  Drs. who don't seem to care to look further instead say it is stress related here is a drug you can take.  Sure stress causes us all to be out of balance.  I just can't live in this environment like everyone else seems to.   Every strong fragrance puts me over the edge.  At Ogden I will wait on the outskirts from the crowd because usually there is too much ben-gay etc... that I can't breath well.  If anyone has heard of this problem and found answers please enlighten me.  I have been to Dr. Remington and have been on his diet (lost 23 pounds) and feel generally a lot better than I was last year at this time but today and yesterday I do not.  I feel the same overwhelming fatigue.  I rarely get a regular cold or flu I just get these weird neuromuscular symptoms.  My neurosurgeon thought for sure it was MS and that it was a matter of time for the damage to be seen.  I fight that diagnosis since noticing my chemical sensitivities.  My grandfather had MS and used to run and then was in a wheelchair.  He worked near a chemical plant.  My grandmother died of breast cancer from working with those chemicals.  Anyway... I am on the prowl.  Sorry for the long entry.  It is when I feel this badly that I contemplate the last several years...hoping I am onto something and that I will be better, normal.