Of Mice and Marathons

PM: 4.1 miles treadmill, averaged 8:39.

Not sure of HR as it didn't seem to transfer from Zwift. Treadmill shut off but seems better at 2% incline. Tired of it. Extremely anxious.

Off.

Didn't feel like doing anything, but did some light weights in the basement with the boys.

Off. 

[Insert blog inappropriate language]. Over-the-top anxiety. Things look pretty dire for next winter and I think new dean is pretty hostile toward special lecturers, so I am not sure how much longer I will have a sustainable job. I am already down a class this fall and I think it is looking much worse in the winter. I am finding it incredibly hard to get out of bed even when I know I have children to take care of. Some people are already jumping ship, and Oakland is loosing excellent, award-winning teachers because it doesn't undertstand that people are happy to work hard and teach well at the university level for a bit over $40,000 per year. Yay capitalism!

Off.

Not sure what this day was. Tired. Got back on some temporary medication, which likley won't solve my underlying issues but I've been very unwell.

Off.

One year in the new house.

AM: 4 miles treadmill, averaged 10:36. HR 156.

This was the day I actually moved up the incline and it seem to help, but did not fix the issue. 

We did a short neighborhood walk with the boys and met some folks. Apparently there are some small trails in the woods beyond the subdivision that belong to the neighborhood. Something to check out. 

PM: just under 2 hours of gravel (25 miles). 141W. HR 151.

First ride on my gravel bike in forever. Not sure why I had it on the trainer as I didn't do too many rides, but it seemed like the rain was never going to end.

PM2: 4 miles w/ Megan and the boys. HR 164. 

Did one stroller stride of 20" @ 5:11 pace.