morning - Got up to Cedar and warmed up with just over two miles and caught the bus up to the start. Goals going into the race - I really thought I had a shot at breaking 30 on this race. I knew it would be very tough, but it just felt like it was there. Lined up with Hayden and kind of told him the plan. We took off and right off the bat, I could just tell it wasn't there. When I finished getting schooled by a high schooler I spent a lot of time trying to figure out what the deal was. I went off pouting and didn't watch my bro and bros finish (sorry guys) then went for a run trying to find the Razorback trail up by the golf course - my favorite run when I was up at SUU, found the bottom part of it, but decided I had better get back to the awards and stuff and showed up just in time (4.05 cooldown). During the run I started to feel a little better about it, but still some frustrations. I would be lying if I said that it didn't bug me that Hayden schooled me, but its not only that. Hayden is a stud and ran awesome today - and really he just stuck to the plan way better than I did; some days other runners are just better than you. What I was having a harder time with is that I just don't have any guts - really it was pathetic. I let the exact same thing happen to me last year; Joe pulled away from me at the exact same spot as Hayden did this year. Of course, I am also bothered about not running anywhere close to my goal. I guess you can say get over it, but I think it will be on my mind for a few days at least. I told Hayden that he should be replacing me on the WBR and I really feel that way. Here's the run down. Last year's split in parenthesis.
1-4:46 (4:43) started pretty solid, wanted 4:40, but I was too chill. 2-4:50 (4:49) wanted another 4:40, but it wasn't there. 3-5:03 (4:56) I didn't want anything over 5:00 especially on only the 3rd. blah. Hayden gapped me a little and I just could work back to where I needed to be. Why didn't I just close the gap back up? 4-5:06 (5:07) Wanted 4:50, I new sub 30 was long gone by now, but trying to be positive and thinking I was still near last year's time if I ran a better final two. 5-5:15 (5:30) A glimmer of hope, I new I had gone 5:30 last year. This is where I was supposed to gain huge time, gained a little. 6-5:19 (5:25) Again I was supposed to chunk off 20+ seconds here and only got a couple. I really didn't even go after Hayden like I should have. I was content in 2nd. I used to never be this way. .2-:59, 5:08 pace (:28, 4:10 pace(?)/ but last year the race was just .13 instead of the full .2; start was moved a little this year) Last year I dug like a mad man to get 31:00, this year I just repeatedly swore under my breathe and cruised in. It is funny how the two races produced such similar results with such different reactions. Last year I was flying SO high after the race; I couldn't contain how excited I was. This year I was completely negative. It is going away some though - the run after, thinking, and writing about it is helping me feel a little better. Congrats to everyone on great races: Hayden especially, PV runners good job, Bull you are really flying right now. Good job James, Dustin, and Ryan and everyone else. (Cumulus silver 526.25) (Ohana 55.9) afternoon - 8.35 Sand Hill Trail. Took it real easy and just enjoyed being out in the desert. Stopped and enjoyed the views multiple times. An enjoyable and relaxing run. (Stratus 478.25) |