So much depends... on the run you do today!

am: 3; good run

pm: warm and cooled 1.5mi. with workout of 4x1600; goal pace: 4:56, with 1 lap recovery.

it was really windy and that got in my head a lot which made me start bad. splits were: 4:58, 5:00, 5:03, 5:00. as you probably noticed, those are no on pace :) i didn't feel way hot, just not a good workout for me. on the cool down my stomach and head really hurt. my teamate byron did really good though, just one second behind me on everyone...but only because if he passed me he'd be going to fast for his pace.

weights after; i lifting 20% lighter today because i really didn't feel very strong. even that was a bit tough. when i got home, we cleaned the church then i went home and took a 30 min nap and when i woke up i had big headache. and i'll spare you the rest. hopefully passes before wednesday, but especially before friday!

am: 3. a bit chilly.

pm: 2 mile warm and cool, then a weird Coe workout which was 100, 110, 120--till 200m. the times started at 16.1 then went to a 27 at the end. which was easy at first then it slowly got faster per rep. i started a bit too fast and ended a bit too slow. it was pretty cold and rainy but wasn't bad during the workout. my stomach only hurt a bit on the warm and cool. good workout. we have panther relays tomorrow. should be fun.

am: 3

pm: had relay's galore today. first race we did the distance medley, going for the school record. the order is: 1200, 400, 800, 1600. and i had the 1600. so i watched my team run great races and coach and i decided that i just needed to run a 4:35 to keep it low key so i could race well this weekend. i got the baton and i felt very good. hit all my laps perfect except my 3rd was slow, but i finished fast and ended with a 4:33. i was very happy with this time because i still felt i could go that pace a couple more lap. hopeful i can get close to that pace for my  mile this weekend. jordan cross with be there so i'll have someone to race with! :)

next i had the 4x800. i went my goal mile pace for this weekend. taking the 2nd lap faster, hit a 2:10. good easy race.

then the 4x400 i hit a 59. hopefully my 800 pace. very pleased with today. makes me pumped up for this weekend! lookin for some big PR's and some school records!

am: easy 3.

pm: easy 4 with 4x200's all around 28-29. felt very good. one of my better easy days. the 200's i took an easy at first and then got quicker as it went, while not killing it.

afterward i took an ice bath with the team. first one in quite a while but felt very very good.

am: 3. felt a bit uneasy in the stomach.

so today i had the 1600m. i felt way more nervous for this race than any race this season. i think its because i've been thinking about it too much or something. but it made my stomach go wack and i was just scared. i was pretty sad that jordon cross wasn't running this, and looking at the time entries i knew i had to run this alone. goal was a sub 4:20.

warmed up 2.75 then got ready for the race. turned out that my race took 20 minutes longer than i thought to get started, so a bit before i took another .5 mile warm up then got on my spikes and did some striders. it was a really windy so i planned on racing hard when the wind was with me, then stride it out on the windy part. my nerves started to leave though.

race started and i went out fast planning on a 1:03 first lap. i pushed through the wind good but ended with a 1:04. felt good still so pushed the next 200 hard and did well, then the next 200 i really struggled and the wind was getting in my head, 1:07. then i got going again but i just couldn't get my legs moving. same kind of thing happened, 1:08. i still felt very good and so i kicked it hard and ended with a 1:04 again for a time of 4:23.

i was pretty mad after this race because not only was i far off my time but i didn't push myself. i just dont know how to pick up the pace at the right times when i'm by myself. i feel i can go under 4:20, even today, but i just wish someone was with me. like last week thats why i raced so well for myself, i had Brower to push me hard. its a lame excuse i know, and i just need to learn to do it. i cooled down right after, by myself, and thought a lot about the race and i'm alright about it now. i know i'll get my time down at BYU.

woke up and ate some breakfeast. my stomach still hurt a bit. got to the meet and warmed up 2.75 miles and prepared for the race mentally. i figured Jordon Cross was going to run about a 9:10, so my goal was to stick on his back the whole time and never let him get too far ahead. got on my spikes and did a bunch of strides and warm up drills and dumped some water on my back.

race started and i got a terrible start. got cut off bad and was in 3 to last with 26 people in the race. i could see cross in the front getting farther ahead so i went out into lane 5 and sprinted hard to pass everyone quickly then got right on his back, 1:07. i felt pretty good and just stared him down trying to keep my strides quick 1:10. he started to pull ahead (only 2nd lap!) and i tried to stick on him 1:11. he just kept getting further ahead but my mile split was 4:41 (1:13) so i was still on pace for the school record and a solid race. but cross was 20 meters ahead and it just kept getting bigger and it really discouraged me. the next two laps he extended to a 100m lead and i was just so mad that i let him get so far ahead. i was way off pace. i felt like i was pushing hard though so i dont know what the deal was. with 1.5 laps left mike buckly, came on my back which was good because it pushed me to go harder and get back on my pace but i know that is sad that i had to even worry about him beating me. he passed me with 300 left but i surged and passed him again and ended with a 9:31 (1:05 last lap).

dumb race. that is not the time i should be hitting. i had someone to push me hard and i did terrible with it. he ended up getting a 9:15 by the way. this is my third race in a row getting this time. i know one of these times i'll get it. just need to make it happen. cooled down 2 miles with cross and talked about the race and other various stuff. he is really a cool guy, its sad i'll pretty much never see him again after this season.

an hour or so later i had the 800m. i was ranked 3rd behind cross and brigam. i was sad about this race too. splits were: 59, 1:00. ending with a 2:00.18. PR'd by half a second. but got 6th, getting outkicked by 3 kids. overall not a very good day. but i did learn some stuff.