So much depends... on the run you do today!

AM: Skipped this morning because when I woke up, my back was hurting so bad.

pm: ran the warm and cool down with everyone. it felt like it did yesterday on the warm up which means its...better. but when i tried to do a few striders to see if i could do the workout it hurt bad again so i decided i shouldn't do it. makes me mad. this is so random and the season is almost over. i'm having someone adjust it tonight so hopefully that will help it :/

am: ran three this morning because my back felt a little better from getting it alined from a friend of mine. but it started hurting towards the end and tightened up again. i kind of wish i would've skipped this run now.

pm: drove up to BYU and got there 50 minutes before my race. i forget my trainers on the bus so i ran barefoot around there grass to see how i felt. it was ok until i started jumping hurdles and it just really killed after that. i tried for about 20 more minutes to see if i could handle it but it just hurt so bad. so i dropped out of my race because i knew i wouldn't be able to finish it and it would just ruin it more.

I was really bummed about dropping the steeple chase because i know i would've had a big chance of winning it and getting a qualifying time for southwest regionals and this was my only chance. so now i probably wont be able to go if i dont get a sub 9:20 two mile. and the way my back is right now, its not looking good :/ tomy's coach gave me so good advice on what he thought which helped and tomorrow my uncle is having me see a back specialist that happens to be up tomorrow that will look at it and maybe give me some stuff to help it cease until the end of state. so hope that goes well. I dont have a race tomorrow, but on saturday i have the 800 and 1600m. those should be a bit better since there are no hurdles...we'll see what happens. sad day.

went to the docter and he told me that my spine was not alined. it was off by 8 degrees which is 2 short of scoliosis. he gave me some pills to take, so now i'm taking 14-16 pills a day for this dang thing :) he almost prescriped steriods but thought i might get addicted since i'm still kind of young. but he said running shouldn't making it worse so that made me happy.

went out on a 5 mile run with the team since none of us had races. we threw in a couple 30 second fartliks. my back felt alright but the fartliks really tightened up my back. afterwards i streched really good.

am: felt alright. my back still kind of hurt. warmed up a mile and a half and it felt better than yesterday. my first race was the 800. i wanted to just see how it felt to see if i would go all out or not. felt confident though.

race started and i went into 5-6. the only time my back hurt as right then and then i didn't think about it anymore. came through the first lap at 1:00 feeling great. so i pushed the pace and moved up into first with 250 left. then some guy surged past me and slowed down as someone came to my side to box me in. i lost a lot of mommentum and it was hard to get it back because i had to stay stiff this whole race to keep my back from tightening. but i still finished fairly strong getting 4 or so in my heat. time...2:00.01! i yelled out in fury when i finished because i didn't break 2. but it was a PR. i'll get it next time!

cooled down to mile and streched really good and took some pills. prepared mentally for the mile. it was a loaded race. warmed another mile and get ready.

back hurt more than the 800 but i knew it wouldn't hurt during the race. RACE: started and i went straight the back of the front back. came through at 1:05. i knew that was way to slow so i tried to surge and keep at it. it was hard to breathe for some reason. i dont remember much of the rest of the race except i did pretty bad. i was way off the back and with a lap to go i was already at 4:19. i pushed as hard as i could and tried to finish good, ending with a 4:23. afterward my legs felt so so tired. i couldn't even stand.

the reason i was so tired, i think, is because i just couldn't breathe. i think my back injury affected that. but i was kind of happy that i was able to get close to my time. the rest of the meet i stretched and took pills. hopefully my back will clear up before region.

am: easy 3.

pm: today was a bit more into the tapering workouts. a lot of the team just had a time trial for the 1600, 1000, or 800. I had 2x1600 repeats at 4:50 pace.

i ran the first one with their time trial and kept it solid. the first lap was 1:05 so i didn't have to go that fast on the rest of the laps to hit my time so i got a 4:47 pretty easy. then a 3 min rest and i did the last one. came through too fast again but it was a bit harder. just had to keep a hard pace and ended with a 4:49. good workout. my back wasn't bad. i stretched it really good and it only hurt the first two laps of both of them. cooled down 1.5 and my legs were dead.

when i got home i took an ice bath. felt..nice (: then i went and got my back adjusted again and chatted with tyson about his college life.

am: 3 good

pm: EASY 3 with 4x200's. easiest easy day of my life. i felt pretty good. my back was fine. the only real thing now is that i have to extend my height as much as possible and i'm not used to that. 200's were supposed to be easy so we ran them all around 34's.

am: 3. felt pretty good

day went fine. warmed up 2 mile and it was a pretty good day at canyon view where region was held. i was excited to race but, i don't know, i felt really weak doing drills and strides. my back felt pretty good though so that was good.

race started and i took out into the lead and came through the first lap at 1:04. i tried to surge here and i kind of did. 6 people were on my back. next lap wasn't amazing, i think it was a 1:08 or so. I could feel my legs slowing down and Abel came and started to pass me so i surged again cause that meant i was slowing down. 1:10. at the beginning of the last lap Jason just blew by me i could not go with him. then another person and another person passed me and i just couldn't run. the last 100 i could hear Nephi (sophmore) coming close to me and i really didn't want him to beat me so i gave it my all and edge him out at least.

i was really bummed about this race. i don't know. i just really feel a lot more tired, and i can't race! i want to run well so bad but i can't get myself to do it. i think i really just don't have any confidence in myself right now.

cooled down a mile

am: skipped morning practice to see if that would help me get more energy.

pm: my back hurt more today for some reason. we got to the meet and it was pretty windy but the rain was holding off. i warmed up 1.5 miles and tried to get energized for the race. still felt tried though. race started and i took back only hurt for the first two laps then it went away. I went off fast again trying to hit the first lap faster to give myself more time to play with. i came through at 1:08 but i felt it was the right effort with how the wind was. i kept trying to push hard and keep each lap consistent. at one point i had a 10 meter lead :/ came through the mile at 4:50 and then i started to feel Jason on my heels again. i knew he was going to stay there and wouldn't pass me till the last lap because of his kick so i had to try to get some distance before then. However my laps didn't go too well. i think i hit a 1:16 on one of them.

last two laps he was still on me and i started moving there and he went right with me. last lap i took off hard and with 200 left he still hadn't passed me so i felt i had a chance. i kept kicking and then with 50 left he began to pull to my side and i just don't believe in my kick so he edged me out again easily.

took a couple hours off then we had the 800m. warmed up a mile then got ready. the first heat had one guy that should've been in ours. he ran a 2:02. then we got up and started and i got cut off but i wasn't too worried. pace started out really slow and we didn't hear our lap pace who knows there. then the last lap i felt good and tried to make my move but i was squared in. i tired to get out but i couldn't and the front pack started moving ahead. i was so mad because i was stuck. finally a hole broke out (200m later) and i got out and started kicking. i counted places and i was tied for 4th and the kid next to me needed the 4th spot to make state and it wouldn't make a difference for me cause i already so i let him get it. but turns out the kid from the other heat beat us so he didn't end up getting to go anyway! so much for that. 2:04.

then a bit later we i was the first leg in the 4x400. started out in the last lane and i just ran bad. i think it was a low :57. made it so the team didn't qualify it for state. it was just a bad region for me and it made it so our team got 3rd. i just need to get some confidence and fix my problems cause i only have state left so i gotta get myself in gear.

am: no morning practice.

pm: 1.5 mile warm and cool and workout of 100m, 200m, 300m, 400m. all out with full recovery.

my back hurt so bad today. i really don't know what makes it hurt and what makes it feel better. there really isn't much you can do to fix your back but take pills and let it heal itself. i just feel like it won't let me go fast, like someone has me on a lease and will only let me go so fast. these hurt really bad though. we didn't time them but i was a lot farther behind than i should be. it's just really annoying.

am: 2 mile morning practice felt pretty good. my back did too.

pm: had a mile time trial today. it was so so hot. 90 degree's. really hot. after the warm up everyone just stood under the sprinklers for a while. i got my spikes on, did a few strides and then joined them. my back felt good which made me happy.

race started and i stuck right behing abel, who was doing a 1000m time trial, and ran a 1:04 first lap. i felt good and moved it a bit faster and halfway through this lap i thought it was the 3rd lap all of a sudden and i was happy about how good i felt. then i realized it only did 2 lap. the third lap the hit really hit hard. i kept it down a bit but i think it was pretty slow. then i finished semi strong with a 4:31.

it was an alright time. not really impressive, but i was more happy that my back still felt good. i'm still taking the pills and getting it adjusted tonight. i think i should be ready to get some of my goals at state. the main thing i'm missing right now is confidence. i dont know how i'm going to get it, maybe just pump myself up, but i really need to believe i can do it or it wont happen.

am: easy 2

pm: 3 with striders. jumped into sandburgs which felt very good. my back hurt just a tad more than yesterday but still good. first swim this summer. finished with my last AP test today and now i'm all done with high school. nothing left to do now but run some killer times at state. i'm really starting to get pumped.

Yesterday Jessica Peterson...or 'JP :)' as she's known on the blog... and I got the Most Outstanding Athlete of the Year for our school which was really cool. i was really excited about it. i can go get a watch or something now.

am: easy 2. felt pretty good. last morning run of my high school season.

pm: last speed workout till state. 2x100m, 2x200m, 2x300m, 1x400m all out with full recovery. i just wanted to do well and mostly see how my back was doing. warm up it felt great (1.5miles) then put on my spikes and then the on the first 100m i took off and i flew! the fastest i've run in about 2 weeks. next 100 same thing. i was so so so happy that my back felt great. didn't hurt at all. my stomach felt kind of sick and i felt throw up come up a few times but that happens every once in a while on workouts.

the 200's went by fast and the 300's i hit a 41 then the next one was terrible, like a 44. the last 400 i kicked it hard but and came in solid with a ~:58. i was having a hard time breathing after but i was just so happy my back felt so good.

on the cool down i went about 200m and my stomach just felt super weird so i slowed down a bit then BAM! i threw up, then again. and i started to black out for a second and fell to the ground. when i came to coach had helped me up and was walking me back to the school. i stopped again and tried to say something but instead more came out...just a bunch of beans and rice from lunch. Yuck! i think it was from drinking too much water or something. plus it was super super hot again. idk. i'll get my energy back by state. i'm feeling really pumped up. i'm going to get a school record! i'm going to get a school record!