Step by step, mile by mile

if the leg was 90% yesterday it's (at least) 99% today, but with two shifts this weekend i'd hate to reaggravate it and spend two days all on my feet and make it worse. i've learned my lesson! if i feel good enough after work tomorrow to run then i should be 100%, if not we'll play it by ear.

sotd: been down so long - the doors

i ran a mile after work, someone cancelled on sunday so i got stuck with a double shift so didn’t feel like testing my luck when the shin was almost immediately sore, not as bad as before though. was really mad and probably would have posted a rant about how karma isn’t real, etc. but after some consulting with dr. google i diagnosed it as shin splints, believe it or not despite 10 years in the game i’ve never gotten shin splints before. did some stretches recommended for that and felt much better

also a mini-rant, yesterday the PCA that cancelled, instead of calling in sick(which she does all the time, you’d think a hospital would be the last place a hypochondriac would work) she comes in and hands the charge nurse a form saying she’s being tested for COVID. i’d bet my fertility she’s just getting tested as a reason to not work the shift, but either way why would you come into the workplace if you’re claiming you might have the coronabug, especially if it’s a hospital floor specializing in long-term care, meaning most of the patients are elderly?! also while i’m just blabbering on i’ve started calling my main chick “boob” as a term of endearment and i think it’s the funniest thing ever because much like my co-workers i’m a moron

AM - 3 miles easy. legs felt good during, shin was a little sore after but less than it's been this past week. it's better than nothing. i'm weighing in under 150 and my RHR is down to 34 so at least i'm in a good place to start training back up.

sotd: bigmouth strikes again - the smiths

strength routine. squats, push-ups, core, the whole nine yards.

i worked a 16 hour overnight shift last night, went home and slept for about 3 hours then came back and worked until 7pm. despite being exhausted and going to bed maybe 10 minutes after getting home, next thing i knew two hours had passed and i wasn't anywhere close to sleep. i had a lot on my mind; mainly how depressing the past 10 weeks have been for me; not to come off as a pity post, it's just running is something i use to combat negative things in my life and without it i've really spiraled lately. anyway i've probably been in the clear with the shin splint issue but keeping what i just said in mind, i really don't want to start training with a chink in my armor, so to speak. new shoes would probably help because the structures expire much faster than pegs i find(plus i've been wearing them to work for about 4 months now, and i average around 4 miles of walking a shift so they've probably hit nearly 1000 lol), and my paycheck hits friday so i'm probably waiting until this weekend, so until then i guess the strength routine will be something to keep the addictive personality used in the right way. anyway felt like i needed to write this out to be able to sleep

here's a bunch of sotd's i've neglected to post that are not to further the agenda of a jolly mood

love will tear us apart - joy division

reach out, i'll be there - four tops

pastime paradise - stevie wonder

goin' out west - tom waits

mutual slump - DJ shadow

rain king - sonic youth

beyond the realms of death - judas priest

just realized i missed my blog anniversary for the 5th year in a row. on one hand being a junior in high school feels like forever ago and on the other hand i feel even farther removed from it than 5 years. regardless, i still remember every lap of the region track meet that graced my first post(5 years later and i’m still kicking myself for kicking way too early in that 800m; 100% would have gone to state if i didn’t take that lead 300m in :) ) anyway plan on starting running again tomorrow, been feeling pretty good but got hit with a rough wave of nausea an hour or so ago. i’m far enough removed from actual training that things like 40+ mile days and running 20-milers like they’re nothing are put in perspective, but god can i not wait for them to mean nothing to me again. might see the chiropractor again just to be safe. gonna buy equipment for a home gym tomorrow so my body will match the hair once i get the “brad pitt from thelma and louise” cut i’ll probably get at the end of the month... my hair’s been growing out since december 2018 and it’s basically a radiator in this summer heat 

sotd: enjoy the silence - depeche mode. i can’t believe i forgot about this when making my birthday songs list last month

AM - 3. worked some night shifts this past weekend that messed up a good sleeping schedule so decided to start a load of laundry at midnight, get my run in at 2AM and not get a good night's sleep so i'll be tired enough after work tonight to go to bed early for the first time since february. legs felt good during and after

sotd: something i can never have - nine inch nails. trent reznor's fanbase has to be just about the most depressed in all of music

AM - 3. mainly a test to see if i'm ready to do 5 tonight. survey says... yes!

PM - another 3. brief but violent storm swept through this evening so couldn’t get out until 10PM, and since i work a 16-hour shift starting at 6AM and at least wanted to try waking up early enough to run before that, it’s all i really had time for. 3 runs with no issues, hate to jinx myself but i’m happy about it

sotd: the wait - killing joke. to commemorate the past 8 weeks or so of mental hell i've been in desperate need of running as a means of escape from, the rest of my songs this month are going to be the music i was really into during. so, either unbearably depressing industrial or thrash metal, basically. maybe some horrorcore too(have i already said 1-800-suicide by gravediggaz? i'd have had to)

PM - 3. got cancelled as i was leaving for work this morning, but around noon got called to be told i have to work the night shift now, which, considering i'm scheduled to work the day shift tomorrow, means i have to congratulate hospital management, because this was the 100th time i've thought "are you guys on crack?" !!! your prize is my spite anyway because of that had to do the run at 4PM in 90-degree sunny weather. drank more coffee than water and the only calories i had were in the sugar in the coffee, so when my first run with a watch told me easy pace was 7:08 i was pretty happy.

sotd: dark entries - barhaus. only band that makes me think of joy division, on a musical standpoint. if anyone reminded me of joy division's songwriter ian curtis it'd probably be cobain though. my two favorite songwriters!

noon - 5 miles. wanted to do this run at 7am after my night shift, but i'd been up 24+ hours and was beat. only had time to get 4 hours of sleep to have a chance to run before another night shift i wasn't scheduled to do, so fun weekend. very hot, combined with lack of fitness probably the hardest mental run i've done this year. hopefully these heat-death runs get easier because if i want to do 4-a-days again at least one will have to be around mid-day.

sotd: the seventh seal - scott walker. if i were to ever soundtrack a movie(something i'd love to do) this song would be what plays at the end montage after the lead goes out in a blaze of glory

off. body was pretty wrecked from two tough back-to-back overnight shifts this weekend so figured i'd get some much needed R&R(i may not have ran much the past few months but i've worked a ridiculous amount; i think the past 3 weeks i've worked at least 60 hours for each one). knee's fine, might need to see the chiropractor because it feels like it needs an adjustment but it's really nothing to worry about as is.

sotd: paint it, black - the rolling stones. i don't have a favorite beatles or bowie song but i do for the stones and it's this one

PM - 5 easy

sotd: less sex - daughters. easily the least abrasive song on my favorite abrasive album

AM - 8 easy. working both night shifts last weekend messed up my sleeping schedule so since i'd been awake since noon this one was pretty slow. longest run i've done in a while. hopefully going to be saying that a lot these next few weeks. was just listening to otis and realized i need to make a list of my 10 favorite kanye west beats on here at some point

PM - 5. felt pretty good! tired, but the pace didn't show. slept from 6-10am so hopefully i'll be tired enough soon to reset the sleep schedule. if only i hadn't agreed to cover a night shift next monday to mess it up again

sotd: graveyard - public image ltd. 

AM - 10. managed to actually sleep last night, only problem was it was maybe 80 minutes at the most. slow and tired because of it, happy it's all smooth sailing so far though. quads are pretty sore, but i expected that since it happened in february when i got back to 15-ish miles a day too. if history repeats itself i'll be pretty sore for a week then i'll adjust

PM - 5. legs were very tired which excites me because it means i'm putting in work. hopefully they bounce back fast enough to do 12 tomorrow morning.

core before bed. only 3 pounds from stopping the diet and not getting dizzy when i stand up too fast lol

sotd: skulls - misfits. having an overtly goth fashion sense means i have multiple misfits shirts so i'd be remiss to not have a song of their's on my blog

AM - 5.25. was going to do 12 but a couple of reasons had me decide to stop early, those reasons being 1.) i hadn't gotten any sleep again and figured an hour less spent running could be use to push my sleep an hour back since i absolutely need to sleep tonight seeing how i work 16 hours tomorrow and 2.) i plan on doing some 20 and 25 mile days next week if all goes accordingly and figured i'd gain more from a shakeout than a run that'd take more energy. i'll still do 5 after work tonight.

sotd: london calling - the clash. i live by the river

also here's some art i really like

off.

didn’t end up running last night bc my 3-7p shift got stretched to a 3-11p shift because someone called in, and i had to be back today to work 6a-11p so didn’t have any time to run in the morning, and i’d rather get to sleep earlier and get more miles in tomorrow morning. quads are no longer sore so i think i’m ready to up the ante again next week. id say 90% chance a triple digit week is on deck

sotd: spellbound - siouxsie and the banshees

PM - 5 after work. brought someone back from the dead during the shift bc my patients die when i say they can(wasn’t even my patient lol)

sotd: she’s lost control - joy division. i’ve been meaning to do a themed week of sotd’s for a while, it was fun doing that