Oh my....what a morning. I slept super great last night. I wasn't meeting anyone and had no pressure of missing my alarm. I got to the gym right at 6:00am. I ate a peanut butter and honey sandwich. Since I felt pretty good last week, I was excited to get this run ON! After all, it was only one more mile. I set up my treadmill and started my first 7 mile run. I felt good and watched Law and Order. Took a GU at mile 6. Reset the TM and only made it to 2 miles. My mental mojo fell in a dark hole and I started to struggle. I took a potty break (but couldn't go) and a few GU Chomps to see if it would help. But the thing that got to me was A. watching the clock and know I still had HOURS left to go and B. seeing people come into the gym and then leave. For the most part, I am a good TM runner. I don't get super bored and can handle the miles alright. Except for today. I totally crashed. (so maybe I'm not a good TM runner anymore) I barely made it through the last 7 miles. I took a 2xcaffeinated GU at mile 11.5 and was really banking on the caffeine. I think it helped physically, but not mentally. I stopped every mile for a few seconds just to try and finish. Another thing that assisted in losing my mojo was that I wore a cotton tank. It was soaking wet. It was heavy and sticking to my stomach. I would have given anything for a new shirt. I walked for a long time after and laid on the floor in the stretching area. Physically, I was tired and my ankle felt good, BUT mentally I was gonezo. Finally, I mustered up enough strength to do two LLL, foam roll and stretch. I also took off my tank and put on my long sleeve shirt. Sorry for all you that I offended. I just didn't care anymore. I stopped at the gas station and got a Coke on the way home.. This is probably too much TMI, but I couldn't pee until 1:30pm. I drank 3 large water bottles and a 1/3 thing of gatoraide during the run. I ate a peanut butter/honey sandwich, 2 GUS and a few chomps. So I'm not sure what the dealo was. Regardless, it is done.
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