P.V.H.S.X.C.S.T.S.

it was a good run ish. the way back up 2450 was a beast. it wasn't actually such a hard hill, but it just was a long hill. I think I'm ready to run more four milers, so then I can run five, so then I can run six, so then maybe one day I could feel like I run awesome distances.

well, it's pretty much official. I am definitely the slowest person on the team. this whole "run at race pace" or "run just below race pace" thing hardly makes any difference for me. I pretty much run race pace every day. I do run slower and more relaxed some days, but on days I feel pretty good about my runs are days I'm going "race pace". cross country and racing and speed is just so different at my end of the race.

I skipped out early today. I feel currently that I am going to die. all I need now is a shower and a good long sleep. I just need to take it easy, especially in this heat. I don't think I would have been able to do the full five. I need a nap. now.

My head ached like a beast today. I felt like my brain was just boggoling around in my head. but surprisingly my little nap on the grass before the run was super helpful. I understandably went rather slow today, and I don't regret it an ounce. this year is going to be even trickier than last year, I can already tell. I know this sounds awful, but I really can't push myself a ton. I just don't have the energy to give XC my all and then do everything else on top of it, it's a tough life.

easy three. The day was hot, and I think I wasn't hydrated enough.

Ah, my first time getting last place. I've gotten second to last, I've gotten third to last, but never last. I don't really care as much as I would have last year. I've accepted that just the fact I still go out and run these things even though I repeatedly do very poorly is an accomplishment. like Coach Holt was saying, I kind of ran this more like I do at practice. there isn't much of a difference, but there is one. I wish there was someone who was just a little better than me who also ran the whole race who I could try to keep up with, but these girls I'm closest to are the run/ walkers, so that's no good. ah well, there's not much I can do.