P.V.H.S.X.C.S.T.S.

okay, here's the story. I'm at a "family reunion" of sorts, actually I'm just in Provo staying with my sister for a little bit. so here's the story of how I came to run only today this past week. thursday I went to salt lake to see a play, but on our way back we decided to stop and talk to my siblings in provo, and when doing that I just decided to stay with them for a few days. so in short I'm in Provo with nothing but the clothes I was wearing that day, no worries my sister and I are the same size in everything... except shoes. so I this morning I went to go do a barefoot run around a soccer park, but that was locked when I got there so I just ran on the grassy area right next to the sidewalk, going back and forth, back and forth. there are lots of runners in Provo.

a very relaxed run with lesly. just chatted as we ran, I hardly noticed anything about the run itself, I was just too busy with my conversation. I'm kind of frightened for my race tomorrow... yikes!

yes yes, I know, I know I'm a slacker. but when I slept in until 7:30, I wasn't even going to come to practice today! so I ran two and a half miles more than I would have. It was on the grass, but coach's daughters weren't there to run with, so I ran all by my lonesome. I stopped early because everyone else was already all the way done and gone, and I didn't want to be all alone and tired for my first race tonight. I'm scared for this race, right now I don't know where I am speed wise, so I'm not able to make an obtainable goal yet. 

First race today. Success! It's actually the best first race time I've gotten yet, so that's really encouraging. I was worried this season had no hope, but now I think I can possibly get back to my peak from last year. I really am way excited about this. I'm not even in my best shape of the summer, considering I haven't ran lately. so I guess my new race goal for senior year is to break 30 again. I'm a little less obsessed with it now that I've done it at least once, but I think if I put  enough effort in, it's obtainable!

pretty much I feel so exhausted I'm surprised I even got that done. I'll be filling out my running blog, showering, then taking a nap! my whole body is just tired from the race yesterday and from not enough sleep recently. I'll need to try to get as much sleep as possible in for the next week while I still have the option of sleeping.

probably my best run of the summer. It was the first time I felt like I was really running instead of jogging or wogging. I was running with Megan, Mariah, Erin, and Alyssa, whom I've been unable to keep up with all summer. I know they were going really slow, but I appreciate it. So today was a great run, I felt great, the company was great, the weather was great. pretty much the ideal run. I'm so glad I finally feel good about one of my runs!

it was a good run ish. the way back up 2450 was a beast. it wasn't actually such a hard hill, but it just was a long hill. I think I'm ready to run more four milers, so then I can run five, so then I can run six, so then maybe one day I could feel like I run awesome distances.

well, it's pretty much official. I am definitely the slowest person on the team. this whole "run at race pace" or "run just below race pace" thing hardly makes any difference for me. I pretty much run race pace every day. I do run slower and more relaxed some days, but on days I feel pretty good about my runs are days I'm going "race pace". cross country and racing and speed is just so different at my end of the race.

I skipped out early today. I feel currently that I am going to die. all I need now is a shower and a good long sleep. I just need to take it easy, especially in this heat. I don't think I would have been able to do the full five. I need a nap. now.

My head ached like a beast today. I felt like my brain was just boggoling around in my head. but surprisingly my little nap on the grass before the run was super helpful. I understandably went rather slow today, and I don't regret it an ounce. this year is going to be even trickier than last year, I can already tell. I know this sounds awful, but I really can't push myself a ton. I just don't have the energy to give XC my all and then do everything else on top of it, it's a tough life.

easy three. The day was hot, and I think I wasn't hydrated enough.

Ah, my first time getting last place. I've gotten second to last, I've gotten third to last, but never last. I don't really care as much as I would have last year. I've accepted that just the fact I still go out and run these things even though I repeatedly do very poorly is an accomplishment. like Coach Holt was saying, I kind of ran this more like I do at practice. there isn't much of a difference, but there is one. I wish there was someone who was just a little better than me who also ran the whole race who I could try to keep up with, but these girls I'm closest to are the run/ walkers, so that's no good. ah well, there's not much I can do.

AM: 2 miles, we started actually running at around 5:50, I got nervous I wouldn't have enough time to get ready before trilogy so I turned around at 2. those girls move SO FAST. I'm grateful I just have to try to keep up in the morning times when it's super cool. but yeah, even without the actual varsity team it still felt like they were booking it.

PM:3 It was hot, it was slow. I just don't know much else to say. I dislike running in this heat, I sweat so much and the sweat gets in my eyes and burns them like crazy. I start crying and I can't see and I just cant get them clean. so come play time, I'll try morning runs.