I got my MRI results back on Thursday and have been depressed ever since. I now know why I have been struggling for the past year. My right knee has a total ACL rupture and a meniscus tear. My left knee also has a meniscus tear. I am not afraid of the ACL surgery, I have had two of them already but this time there are other issues that have to be considered and the uncertainty of how and when has me rather anxious. Since I have already had an ACL repair done on this knee (20 years ago) they will have to remove the screws from that surgery and do bone grafts. Recovery on this stage is about 6 months. Then I will be ready to have the ACL reconstruction, which requires 6 months to a year for total recovery. Since I just started a new job I do not want to miss any work, therefore, I don't know when to schedule the surgery. When I had my left knee done 10 years ago I was able to do it the first day of the UEA break and I was back to work on Monday- no missed work. I was on crutches for a while and had to rely on my students a bit to help me but things worked out. Now that I'm 10 years older I'm not sure I'll be able to get back on my feet so fast. I really don't won't to miss work. Today I decided to try and run since I've been running on it (sortof) for a year now. I ran from my house down 114th south to the district and back. I ran 3 miles (9:21, 9:22, 9:26) then I walked a mile (stopping in at Harmon's to get a bottle of water), then I ran 2 miles (9:21, 8:17) then I walked 1.5 miles. I feel like the tin man running. My knee is really stiff and likes to send shooting pains and give out every now and then.
I am rather discouraged. I was hoping to BQ again this year but it looks like running might be on hold for a while. I wish I knew...
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