Why I couldn't get out the door today, I don't know. I feel much better though. The alarm system guy came last night, and we bought a (pricey!) system that will be installed next week. And, last night, I slept like a baby! Finally!
I have learned a lot about myself during this burglary ordeal. I have always been a drama queen and feel life's highs and lows very strongly. It can be an asset and a liability. In this case, it was a liability. It is the same way with my running. If a race goes well, I am on cloud nine and very motivated. If a race goes badly, I get down in the dumps and don't run at all for a while, as my blog has shown over the last few months.
Because this situation was relatively minor (we weren't hurt, nothing was damaged, and it's only stuff, except the pictures), I think I expected to be stronger than I was. I was on autopilot on Monday, doing things I had to do with the insurance company, etc. When that frenzy ended and it was time to go back to my normal routine yesterday (and I had time to reflect), I completely freaked out. In the process, I became very angry with myself for not being stronger (I have also always been very hard on myself) and not being able to do my job for another day. Luckily, I have great, understanding bosses. I allowed myself yesterday to freak out, be angry and scared, etc., which I know will not go away overnight. On the bright side, I got to spend several uninterrupted hours with my sister. She is the best!
Enough ranting. The moral? I'm not quite sure-get an alarm system, definitely! Also learn to accept yourself and your imperfections. Know your limitations. And, it's important to surround yourself with supportive people who, at the same time, will not let you have a pity party. My mom said in a sermon once, "Having a pity party is like crying on the devil's shoulder."
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