AM: Track- basic 1-mile fitness test and then some 300s with trivia with the group. Would have rather gave them a real 12 minute test, but the mile worked just fine I think. I then sat out a couple of the 300s- relegating myself to the sidelines out of frustration- and only did 6 of them total.
Mile- 5:10, each 300 was done at 5-minute per mile pace.
Certainly not proud of that mile time. I did try my best. That's the toughest pill to swollow. However, thinking about it, nothing this entire season has been any good for me workout-wise, time-wise, or effort-wise, so it's pretty par for the course. I don't know why my expectations were so high.
For 3 months it's been a pretty grueling, sad experience to be a runner. It's oddly depressing to be going the other way while still working hard, but then I remember all of the dedication and effort I've put in in the past two years. The miles and time on my feet. The mitochondria and red blood cells built/increased. The efficiency of stride and form. The fitness and muscle gained. I know it's all there. Now just to fit the pieces together- little by little if I need to. It's just not worth it right now to waste all of that, particularly now that I'm healthy.
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