I think this may be my last running season. I'm starting to wonder why I do all this running when it's not like I'm that great at it, and the nuerotic energy that has caused me to run all these years is starting to wane as I just realize there is no 'running away' from stuff I'd rather avoid than think about. I'm beat, and it's kind of over for me to hope for more. Maybe I can just run less, and slower just as an excuse to be outside, which seems to be my primary source of peace right now. My daughter's friend and my son want to start running with me in the mornings. I'm pretty sure I could get them up to 3-5 miles every few days. If I wasn't training for two marathons a year I'd have more energy for that kind of running-- Too soon these children will be gone from my life. I don't have a lot of things to offer in the way of being 'a good example' but I can take a couple of kids out for a jog and teach them that discipline is doing something you must do, even you don't necesarily want to do it, doing it the best that you can while you're doing it, to finish what you start, and to count a finish as a win. I'd like for those younger and more capable than I to pick up where I gave up.
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