Running because I can!

O My Gosh!  I am not sure what happened to me. I think I was on the edge of a serious mental break down this last couple of months. 

I can list a million reasons why I have stopped running/ working out but they are just excuses I am sure.  I looked at myself yesterday and the day before that and that, and asked myself what the heck I was doing and today I decided I better change it. 

I am amazed at how fast all my hard work went right down the drain. I thought the whole time I was running (Really running) I was not seeing any diffrence and now if I could just go back to what I looked like and felt like a couple of months ago I would.  It was a big diffrence.

I made a good choice to get back on my treadmill today. I was sad to see how much slower I was. My lungs did not like what I was doing and I could feel my butt bouncing. (It acually did not do that before I stopped running.

I ran 2.05 miles in what I normally run 3 which was in 30.42 minutes.  Seriously I will be stiff tomorrow that is the sad part.  I am going to start eatting better again as well. I hope this time is a go and I can keep it up.  This month is going to be just about as busy as the last two but I hope not as stressful.

I will find out if I am going to be closer to adopting my baby boy and if that goes bad I hope to at least feel better about myself so I can hold it together.  On a good note we have a date to adopt our other boy. Finally it has taken 4 months to get the paper work all back together.        

I was a little stiff yesterday so I did not get on the treadmill, but I was fine today.

I decided my goal was 4 miles no matter how long it took me because that was my average before i gave up.  I was on the treadmill for 67 minutes but I did it.  I did have to take a few phone calls while I was on and I can't hear and walk fast at the same time for some reason. 

I thought I would take advantage of the defrosted road and try running out side.  I have no idea how you all run out side as much as you do and don't slip and fall.  My lab came with me and fell 3 times. I am sure I would have if I would not have been watching my steps so closely.  It was all clear and then all the sudden patches of ice. 

My husband was suprised I cam home dry and not complaining of falling.

My lungs did not like the cold air when I was breathing hard.  I made it home in 23 minutes.