O My Gosh! I am not sure what happened to me. I think I was on the edge of a serious mental break down this last couple of months.
I can list a million reasons why I have stopped running/ working out but they are just excuses I am sure. I looked at myself yesterday and the day before that and that, and asked myself what the heck I was doing and today I decided I better change it.
I am amazed at how fast all my hard work went right down the drain. I thought the whole time I was running (Really running) I was not seeing any diffrence and now if I could just go back to what I looked like and felt like a couple of months ago I would. It was a big diffrence.
I made a good choice to get back on my treadmill today. I was sad to see how much slower I was. My lungs did not like what I was doing and I could feel my butt bouncing. (It acually did not do that before I stopped running.
I ran 2.05 miles in what I normally run 3 which was in 30.42 minutes. Seriously I will be stiff tomorrow that is the sad part. I am going to start eatting better again as well. I hope this time is a go and I can keep it up. This month is going to be just about as busy as the last two but I hope not as stressful.
I will find out if I am going to be closer to adopting my baby boy and if that goes bad I hope to at least feel better about myself so I can hold it together. On a good note we have a date to adopt our other boy. Finally it has taken 4 months to get the paper work all back together. | 